Blogtober 4 , Oct 4th -Faith & belief

Hey,

I wanted to talk about faith and belief, again.....
I can't specify enough about these two things they go hand and hand. Both have been hard for me through out the years but I've learned that it's all physiological, this is what living is for most of us. In order to have faith we need to believe that all the great things that's happened to us can happen again. Although way deep down I know this, I am always reassuring myself that everything that happens to me is a blessing. Lost friendships, family members, jobs, money spent on stupid purchases. All that stuff that has happened were blessings. At the moment I put more effort, energy into those people or situations than i should have but that's what faith comes in. Faith comes in knowing that if you did something once, you can do it again. You got that job once you can get it again... maybe a better one. You got into that relationship once you can get into another one even better. You just have to believe, and be aware that this moment will pass and it's not the end of the world!

Thanks for reading,
Pynkstarr

Inspiration update

     Hey all. I know it's been a longgg while since my last post. Believe me I do not like taking time off from anything I love doing. I really enjoy writing and blogging is the easiest way to get my thoughts 'that cross my mind' out there in the world. A lot has happened in the last few weeks. 

Keeping the faith

Keeping your faith can hard at times. So I wrote a blog to help in anyway I can.

Read it here.
Thank you so much for reading

With Love,

Pynkstarr

Goood Morning-Courses

Hello lovely people

I am on my way out this morning but really needed to express this feeling I am having. Recently I have been going through a lot of different emotions regarding my life-things like my job, money, and the usual stresses of life. I used to always have faith that if you prayed for something it should happen like right then and there. For instance, when I wrote it down, made it happen with my new job. I kept feeling like why would God put me in a position knowing I can't handle it, knowing I asked for happiness. Through all these things I had lost my faith, as discussed in a previous post, instead of gaining a stronger one. I basically reverted back to the person I used to be, not the person I want to be.

Now is the time to become the person who you know you can be. Besides the fact that I am here on earth for something, I shouldn't have gave up so easily. I didn't realize till now that I am on a course, I almost quit that course. Because it was too "hard" I wanted it to end and be over. I was sick because of it everyday. Thinking over and over bad things. Nothing was right. I couldn't get it right. But, I am on a course. Just like many of you are on courses. I am being prepared right now for something greater that I want in life, which is to be a Fashion Merchandiser. At the moment I am just not ready to do that yet. I realized this now.

I let my want for tangible things stop me from moving on and along.

And since this week is thanksgiving and I want to share with you all a verse from 1 Timothy 4:1-6

"Now the Spirit speaketh expressly that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and doctrines of devils; Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron; forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from meats, which God hath created to be received with thanksgiving of them which believe and know the truth. For every creature of God is good, and nothing to be refused, if it be received with thanksgiving: For it is sanctified by the word of God and prayer. If thou put the brethren in remembrance of these things, thou shalt be a good minister in Jesus Christ, nourished up in the words of faith and good doctrine, whereunto thou hast."

Hopefully this scripture can help someone through something they are going through. As long as you follow the courses, it will prepare you for what you are destined to be.

Thank you for reading,

XO, Pynkstarr :)

Losing my Faith

Hi ya'll

Yes I am back with yet another post about faith. I feel as though, YT and my blog are the only two places outside from friends and family that I can actually vent and express how i feel.

Lately, I have had this string feeling that something just is not right. You know that feeling you get in your tummy when it tells you to take another route home or not to eat in a restaurant, well it's that kind of feeling but stronger for me. When I wake up daily, I always ask God what is it that I am meant to do with my life. I have always had the fear to end up with out having a plan for my life and being without anything. Anything meaning materialistic stuff. But also food, shelter, water, etc. As I get older I have began to have more and more faith that God will see me through anything. He knows the plan that I am going to take, He knows what I will do in my life. He knows.

The thing is I don't know.

A few months ago I had to leave a job because of medical and other reasons as well. I hated going there so much that I took a pay cut and reduced my hours to weekends only so I wouldn't have to go. It was making me so sick to go there, I had migraines daily and upset stomach. After I resigned, I kept doing a few days at this showroom in NYC, which I love so much. But they were unable to keep me, and since I was graduating I needed to find that FT job I was praying for. I had faith that even though I had to quit my job, God would see me through.

That's when I found the place I am at now. This place was my dream Pay and other luxuries. But it is not my dream job. I assumed, maybe I have to pay dues before I can make it big in my life. And I figured if I was meant to be here, I was meant to stay no mater what. Then things started turning into what I had gone through before in previous jobs. Anxiety attacks from the stress and being too overwhelmed, nausea, now it's dizziness.

People say why don't you leave, you don't deserve to let a job kill your body at such a young age. Then of course you have the "if it were me" friend telling you to quit. My body is even telling me to leave. So why haven't I just left.

I think it's because I had lost my faith. I say I have faith all the time, but at that moment when I got this job it went out the window. Because the first thing the popped in my mind was "you better take it, even though something was telling me not to, because this is it". If I had kept the faith, I would have known that it would've been okay to say no. It would've been okay because He would've just sent me something else.

For me to have lost faith is just absurd. All the things I have gone through and came out of, for me to lose faith and give up is just crazy.

Just please if you don't do anything else, never lose your faith. Hold on to it forever. He will always steer you in the correct path. If something tells you that it isn't right, then its not. Really listen to that feeling because it is Always right.

~Pynkstarr~

Forever blessed, never stressed