Okay so this may not be a real thing but I think I have really am suffering from readers block. I purchased all of these things to get me inspired to write and meditate on all these goals. And I have yet to accomplish this. So I am sure this problem has risen due to me always over whelming my life. I put so much on my plate because I feel like I should be doing something at every min of the day. I don't know if this is a disorder I have or just something that most people go through. I just try to figure everything out on my own and when I am unable to figure things out in a timely matter, I become really stressed. Which brings me to my readers block. I feel like I need to be reading all of these books I have, I feel like I should be taking notes constantly. Reading and writing affirmations all the time. Praying all the time, reading the bible all the time. On top of doing everyday life stuff. So what has happened is because I feel uninspired to do everything, I have just completely stopped doing anything. I haven't been listening to my Gabby B, nor have I been writing in my very beautiful notebook; the one I thought would inspire me to write.
I can not even begin to count how many things I've started and never really completed. There might be a name for this. But I start books, I start projects, I start journeys and I never complete them.
This frustrates me all the time.
How do I learn to just relax? I fear that I am forcing myself into an early grave because I stress about everything. Literally everything. From the time I wake up @7am until I go to sleep at about 11 pm, I am stressed about something. Which I believe is complete madness for any human being to live. I just need to learn how to relax.
So other than that, I started my Externship this week. And so far so good! :) Some times God just puts you in a place where you need to be for right now even if it's not where you'll be forever.