Tuesday, December 30, 2014

My perfect Bantu Knot!!

Bantu Knots

          Hello my wonderful readers!! It has been a long time since my last post. I honestly have been extremely busy with my classes that the only thing I had time for was homework. It was almost like school took over my life completely. I didn't wanna really do many other things other than school work because when I commit to something, I have to succeed in it.
       Now that school is officially over, I can spend that time blogging. I love blogging because I always have a lot to say. And yet I never have many to say it too. LOL. 

Saturday, December 27, 2014

My college life: Part 1 "The Decision"!

Hi y'all I just wanted to share some tips I use in order to stay organized while being a student.

Saturday, November 22, 2014

Beauty Haul 2014 - Estee Lauder, ELF, plus more!

I was so happy to go shopping for some beauty products soooooo why not share!!

(1). Milani Baked Blush in Berry Amour #3
(2). Urban Decay Creme eyeliner
(3). ELF eyebrow kit in medium
(4). Ardell Lashes and lash adhesive
(5). Estee Lauder Double Wear Foundation in Sandalwood

All of the stuff I purchased are from Harmons and Sephora.

Check out the video below!

Thank you all for watching and reading!

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Coming soon!! Beauty Haul :)

Coming soon. Swatches and haul :)!!!!

Saturday, October 18, 2014

I am back in School ya'll!!!!

Yep you read that title right, I am currently a college student again. I am back in school getting my BA in Fashion Marketing and Management, I already have my A.A.S.

This was, of course, a long journey because I graduated in 2010 and wasn't very sure if I wanted to go back to school to get my BA. But I have always known that school is going to be what gets me in the door. I haven't had many jobs therefore I rely on my education to get my foot in the door. I wish I could say yay guys I got me a job, finally, but unfortunately that isn't going the way I thought. Here is the tea on that, I was hired about 2 weeks ago, had orientation and everything. Now I am just waiting for a call for my new schedule. I mean I am not sure of many companies that hire you then say someone will either email you or call you. And nothing for almost a week.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

My first experience on a train.....Tips for taking an Amtrak Train Overnight.

Hey all I just got back from such a wonderful trip to Florida to visit my boo and I must say it was so much fun...once I arrived. The ride there was awesome but it was extremely long and exhausting. The best parts were the fact that my mommy came with me, being able too see nature and different towns. But that's basically it. If you have to ride OVERNIGHT and if you have about a grand to spare then I suggest you get a roomette. We had a coach seat which wasn't too too bad, but after about the first 10 hrs your butt falls asleep. Then when it's time for lights out, around 10pm, and you began to get tired finding a comfortable sleeping spot was difficult for my mom and I. Her more than me because of her height. I am only 4'10'' so I was kinda able to curl up in a ball on the seat. I can't sleep sitting up, but if you can then do you boo. Otherwise get a room!!!

My Busy Busy week plus new schedule.

So I know it's been a minute since my last post but some great things have come about since the last post.

First I have made the decision to go back to school for my Bachelors. Although I just attended school for computers, I have decided to finally get my Bachelors in Fashion Marketing and Management.  Which is basically in the fashion business side of things. I think I made a blog post about that already, talking about my fashion experience. I may do a video on that soon :). I think it would have helped me out a lot to know what to expect exactly. Going back to school was one of things I wanted to manifest in my 8-week Focusing on Manifestation class I am taking now. The class has been a life saver by putting things that were in my subconscious mind already and taking them to another level. It has put things into perspective for me in ways I have not really thought about on the same level as before.

One of the necessities, or shall I say 3, is to have notebooks for different purposes during the class and hopefully beyond.  I will continue to do the notebooks even after class because I feel like it has helped me stay out of my head really. At times I over think things and turn them into negative thought before they even happen at all. I am just learning about training my thoughts really. After writing down about the school and seeing my boo, they have since manifested. I am starting school in a few weeks and I am going to go see my boo. The other thing I am manifesting is a job. I know I will find one soon. But the thing is I have no idea in what field because I have experience in so many. I mean I can't really pick a field really. I want to obviously do something with technology and fashion some how. That's just what I am meant to do in life. I have been surrounded by both all my life in some aspect. And I feel like they are my calling. Buttttt the issue is what am I supposed to do with that. Like is it a job or something. So many question I don't have the answers for but that's why you write in the notebooks. To express your true feelings and many many questions.

I am also traveling this week finally to Florida. I have been searching and taking notes on traveling because I have been saying I want to travel here and there and then never travel anywhere. LOL. So now that I am doing so I needed to be prepared on some things that involved it. I'll be posting on that too next week when I come back.

That brings me to my schedule. I will start posting once a week on any every aspect of my life. I needed to do this scheduling because it seems to work for most bloggers and vloggers. I will post once a week probably on Saturday nights or Sunday nights. Just a recap to end the week, sorta like the day in the life. I've just wanting to revamp some things and I always say I need to post more for my loyal readers who read all the time. Or even new comers. I really appreciate it!!

Well, let me finish packing

Friday, August 22, 2014

Long time no post! BAPs was cancelled! :(

Hey everyone. I know it's been such a long while. Mainly because I have been through a world wind of sorts. I really enjoy blogging but it became draining to vlog everyday about the TV shows I watch because duh! I watch a lot of TV. So I am still watching tho but maybe I should just do a once a week thing. I will continue to update shows but I can't do all of them, it's too draining. It really doesn't take me long to become drained.

Also I have joined a group for manifestion it is hosted by  Shira of Sugarfreetv. Ya'll know how much I talk about her all the time. Any hoo I am enjoying the course so far. But it takes so much of my time. I am basically working on myself. Meditation, breathing. Buying stones. Working on my chakras. All that good stuff. It just is one of those things where I am like ugh, I can't do both.

Wedneseday on my way to an interview I lost my wallet somewhere. Nothing but $4.00 was in it so it wasn't like that big of a deal. But I just hate losing stuff. Not to mention I did not want to go to that interview. Like I was just going just to go on an interview. Not apart of my plan in the 8 weeks of this course, which is to really really concentrate on one main purpose. Which is to find the career of my dreams. I have written it all down.

Today I went to NYC to just make some purchases. It always makes me feel great to go there. Plus I got to go to the book store. Then Micheal's. Whoo hoo!

Below are all the stickers and notebooks I purchased to embellish my new notebooks for the class. I love being artsy and crafty.  I also bought some lavender. Which I here helps you sleep. 
That is basically all I have been up to. 

Also Lifetime cancelled BAPs. Now Idk if it's the ratings, because they have kept things on that channel for lower ratings. But I believe since it's filmed in Missouri there could be a personal reason. I mean yes the show was boring but they filmed 6 episodes and they won't show the remaining 2. What's the deal with that?! O well! Fair well BAPs. 

I have been watch this season of BFV and SWV Reunited. They have been okay. Sisterhood of Hip hop was okay too. Maybe I can just stick to Project Runway because I have been enjoying this season. I also watch Big Brother.

I watch a lot for now. Yes I will eventually stop watching all these shows because I am learning to use your time wisely. 

I thank you for reading!

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Hit the Floor Season 2 finale: who killed Olivia?! Top five fav points

OMG that ending was not expected but expected. I also say that because I figured a curve ball was coming from someone we least expected.

Monday, August 11, 2014

BAPs Season 1 and Episode 3 review/recap

This show is unreal every time I watch it I am in shock. I feel like when I watch many reality shows I see how others try to emulate upper class black people but just end up looking like a hot mess. Well if this is the only example of upper class black people then they are all the same. The same people that diss poor people or look down on poor people act no different than the misrepresentation that is out there. That poor people don't work, live a ghetto lifestyle and have nothing going for them.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Project Runway Season 13 episode 3 review

Hey all.

So I finally watched Thursday's episode of PR and I must say something is different about the production of this season. Like I love how they switch it up but there is definitely something new going on. Besides the makeup and hair switch that they do different every few years. 

Monday, August 4, 2014

Hit the Floor Season 2 Episode 11

Last night's episode of Hit the Floor was so juicy. I mean of course I was super mad about last weeks let down. But I understand why the writers do what they do. 
So to recap the episode.

Sloane returns to her office to see her envelope is missing. Jelena is always one step ahead of everyone in everything. She literally has eyes all over the country. Sloane has an Oscar-take-down group meeting with Kyle and Raquel.They disband since all the evidence is gone anyway. Terrenece's injury is now in the media, Jelena tells him about Zero. Oscar is supuscious after that ME called him about the girl he sent, when Oscar never sent a girl. The ME goes missing. LOL. He knew he messed up big time. Oscar spoke with a cop who is looking for the ME and informs Oscar that Chase was cleared of killing Oliva and that he is now the new targeted suspect. Oscar will not have it. He talks to Jelena about staying in her place. She informs him she is not the one he should be worried about. Lionel is pregnant and goes to tell Pete when she over hears him and Sloane exchange I love yous. Sloane cries in the bathroom and runs out upset, bumps into Jelena, throws away baby shoes. 

Jude now needs to make sure his alibi with he and Derrick being together the night Olivia died is still intact. Kendall gets an exclusive with Derrick regarding his future with the team and questions about Terrerence. Zero and Oscar are talking in the stands and Oscar knows he needs Derrick more than ever now. So he tell Kyle of a new plan regarding cocaine and other drugs. A video camera and some cash to taint Derrick's chase to leave the Devils if he planned on it. She agrees to help him. German questions Kendall's motives about the information she had to give up in order to get a raise. I mean why did he expect anything less right. Kendall is a cool girl but she came to LA to work and will do anything to get to the top. 

Team heads to Boston, MA. They do a flash mob dance. Sloane calls Jelena to speak to her after Asha informed her that Jelena was in the stadium late last night.  Then Lionel pops up at her house. She blames Sloane for her marriage never really being a marriage. yea and I am sure alllll that partying and drinking/drugging had nothing to do with it. She tells Sloane she hates her and leaves. While in Boston I noticed some chemistry between Asha and German. AWWW.

As Asha is practicing to Tinashe's 2 On in walks German. He gets a lap dance from Asha then leaves for his date, more like sex date with Kendall. Asha continues to practice her strip tease a lone. Then German comes back and they have sex on the floor ewww because that floor is Christina Augiulera dirrty!

Jude goes to tell his dad about Sloane and Raquel's plan when his father interrupts him and tells him about Olivia and him meeting. Oscar had Olivia followed and saw everyone who she spoke to that day. He assumed it had to do with the fact that Jude's neighbor informed him of his male on male activities. Then tells his son he won't except it. And says he has no son :(. So sad.

Raquel asks Pete to marry her. Jelena meets Sloane and tell her she no longer has the paper work she had on Oscar. Then you see Lionel walk into Oscar's office with the paper work :(. Plan failed again. 
Kyle tells Derrick what Oscar was up to and they come up with a plan to bring Oscar down. YAY! But she says one of them would have to leave LA. BOOOOO! I can do without Derrick's fine ass tho. I just love Kyle's spunky character. 

Next week is the Season finale but there will be a new season 3 next year so yay.

See ya next week


Hello......hair talk!

It has been so long since I actually made a post that had to do with my natural hair. Where do I begin?!

Saturday, August 2, 2014

TV Review: BAPs Season 1 Ep 2

Okay I know I said I was not going to be into this show but the latest episode was pretty good. Also my new favorite character is no longer Anesha. Her attitude in this episode was just bad. She may either be on something or just crazy. They were drinking a lot in this episode so maybe that's it.

Friday, August 1, 2014

TV Review: The Killing Season 4 episode 1 recap *spoilers*

I think I have been anticipating this season of The Killing since two years ago. LOL. At least it feels that long anyway. This new season is the last :(. But so far so good. And since it comes on Netflix now, we get to binge watch all six full hour episodes in one sitting. So let's get to the recap, spoilers will ensue.

TV Review: Project Runway ep 2 Season 13

Last night's episode of Project Runway was kind of a dud. I only say that because I really don't get what the heck most of the designers are saying. Plus I feel like Lifetime is trying their best to keep viewers so they will do what ever they can to manipulate these people to entertain us.

Silver Team (Winners)

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Tv Review: Hit the floor

The latest episode of Hit the Floor just wasn't for me. It was one of those episodes that make you wanna punch the TV screen. One main reason is Asha's naivety. No one on earth is this naive right?
Some of the lines they give her I just can't deal with them. Telling Jelena about your routines and where they are is like telling a thief where the key is to your safe.

TV Review: The Haves or Have Nots Finale

So um....yea. The season Finale for the Haves or Have Nots was really good. It didn't disappoint. Only thing I didn't like was when David went in Maggie's hotel room. That doesn't really seem like something David's character would do, but I believe that's the point of having a "wow" factor in the season finale. Not everything will be cookie cutter for TV. Maybe his character is just fed up with Veronica's attitude towards life.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

TV Review: The Killing !!!!Spoilers!!!

I have been watching the Killing since season 1. At first I thought this show would suck. I mean come on A&E isn't my kinda channel. But after watching the first episode I rather enjoyed it. Then I kept coming back for more. Then my internet got cut off and I just had no way to watch it anymore. So I watched Season 2 premiere and kinda gave up on it. Fast forward to a few weeks ago when I found out that Season 4 was the last season and would be on Netflix. I decided to give it another try, but not before catching up where I left off in the first place; Season 2 ep 2.

I binge watched the remainder of Season 2, only to find out that they literally spent 2 whole seasons on Maggie Larsen. Here I am thinking they finally found the killer. But nope they hadn't. Of course I know the killer now, but I won't spoil it for you. So Season 3 started off with a bang which I love to be pulled in in the opening scenes of every show. The gist of Season 3 is Linden is no longer a detective. Holder has a new partner, who I hear is a big deal in Season 4. Linden had a case 3 years ago where this little boy was found in the closet after his mom had been decaying for one week in their apartment. The main suspect was the husband who is now on death row and only has two weeks to live.

Holder and Reddick have a new case of a teenager who reminds Holder of Linden's case 3 years ago. Where the killer cuts the women up in a specific way. Holder tells Linden, Linden tells Holder she has a new life. Linden visits her old partner/lover, Skinner, to reminisce about the dead mother. Skinner reminds her that the husband was the killer and that he is sentenced to death in a few weeks.

Bullet and a few others are also introduced in this Season. Bullet is a teenage runway who becomes cool with Holder after her BFF becomes missing. She assists holder in finding some of the spots most runaways are hiding.

Linden finds 17 bodies of teenage girls all of who was cut in the same way as the dead mother.

Linden then becomes a detective again working with Skinner, who she had an affair with years ago when they were partners. Linden believes that the husband in jail isn't really the killer but just doesn't have the proof.

Fast Forward a bit. The husband, Seward, is executed after Linden tried to save him knowing that he didn't kill his wife. But it was too late to help him. Linden and Holder discover that the boy may have seen the killer dump the bodies which is why his mother was killed, the killer was really looking to kill him. Linden and Skinner end up having sex after Skinner left his wife. Then Linden finds out that Skinner is the killer when she  goes to his house to find him and sees his daughter with a ring on from one of the missing girls. Thinking that Skinner has the missing boy Adrian they drive to the woods. Holder finds them and tells Linden that Adrian is safe and that Skinner never had them. He tried to convince her not to kill Skinner because there are more girls out there to be found. She kills Skinner anyway.

So now we are coming up to Season 4 where Holder and Linden have a secret...I am assuming killing Skinner is the secret. I don't know what the secret is but whatever it is I can't wait to see the new season. Which is 6 episodes but 1 hr long with not commercials :)


TV Review: Project Runway Season 13 ep 1

I finally had a chance to watch the new season of Project Runway. Before that I watched a special they had where they followed the contestants to their homes. Which became really interesting pretty fast when I saw that one of the contestants was an Atheist. Now I have no problem with anyones beliefs because A) I know absolutely nothing about Atheism B) I have my own issues to worry about.  But the issue is with Lifetime. I didn't know it was okay to where t-shirts with labels on them on any show.

Friday, July 25, 2014

TV Review: BAPs Season 1 Ep 1


Yep that's how I felt after watching the first season, first episode of BAPs. Which stands for Beautiful Black Princesses/Princes. Nothing against the show concept, I understand what the network was doing. They wanted to show black folks who had education and come from something not just from the "streets". Yes I was annoyed of seeing that too. I mean there are tons of black people who went to college and graduated, but all we ever see are the ones who didn't. Therefore allllll blacks are considered uneducated and lazy sitting around collecting welfare. So I get it. Educated black people would be a different step forward had they not been so stuck up.


The funny thing is I heard that saying all my life. I have always been called "stuck up" "wanna be white" all that you can think of to me down because of how I spoke, where I come from, or how I treated people. Now I am not saying all the characters on the show are stuck up but half of them are. Besides that it was a little dry for the first episode. Here is my version of the recap:

Anisha is a single mom, dating a thug(the other BAP's word not mine) co parent, dramatic gossip queen. And she is my favorite. She is a little loopy but I do love her for her down to earth personality.

I don't dislike Gina but her segments had her come off as "I don't have a man because I am too educated".

Then you have Kristen who has a beef with Anisha for a fight that happened two years ago. Yep. 2 whole years ago. I consider myself an adult not because of my age but because of how I act. I have behaved this maturely since I was in the womb. So when I see women argue like 5th graders it's just embarrassing. And it's not just this show it seems all the shows I watch are like this. Esp the women.

So here is what was said.......two years ago. Kristen being BFFs with my girl Anisha just flat out called her a bad mother. (and from the looks of future eps she will say it again more than once). Anisha was going through a divorce at the time so Kristen pulled that "tough love" excuse. This comment caused Anisha to tell Kristen that her womb is cursed.

That is all the recap that's important, because that is the ONLY thing that happened on the episode. I mean yes, we meet a few other characters but all they kept talking about were Kristen and Anisha's fight and how they have to get them together. And that is another thing I hate about reality shows they always feel the need to have "get togethers" around the time people are beefing with one another. I mean I get it, it's dramatic for us at home to watch. Kind of suspenseful in the essence of "what will happen at the restaurant". But I don't know about any of ya'll but I don't want to see, speak to, bond with people I don't like. I don't want to be in the same room as them let alone make up. Once we are done, that's it. And that's me with all relationships.

So will I watch again? Maybe. But only because of Anisha. I love her!

Thanks for reading!!!

Thursday, July 24, 2014

TV Review: Sisterhood of Hip Hop sneak peek review

Hey ya'll there is a new show out called,

I watched the first I guess you can call it an episode last night and I must say it wasn't all that bad. But I don't think it's "rachet" enough for todays TV reality shows. Although I believe we have come a long way as far what we like to view (look at the success of scripted dramas out now). I still know we still like our reality shows to be a little hood. 
So here is what I thought!!!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

I really don't enjoy doing wash n gos!!

Every time I see a video regarding wash and gos not being for my type of hair I get really angry and do one. Then I get angry at myself for trying it knowing dang well the last time I tried one, my hair was a mess. A big mess. I am going to start video documenting them more. lol. People need to see the bad as well as the good hair moments I have.

Friday, July 18, 2014

I heart Miss Jessie's Pillow Soft Curls!!!

After hearing so much about Miss Jessie's Pillow Soft Curls, I decided that instead of wasting my money on the whole product I could just try the sample. 

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Vision Board updated

Hey ya'll
I haven't completed my board yet but here is how it looks currently.

I added more pictures, and colors and stickers.

Life to me is all about manifestation. Although writing it down to make it happen helps, but some times we need a visual piece to look at.

If you don't have the sources to make a tangible vision board make a Pinterest inspired vision board. Those look just as amazing. 

I plan on adding more colors and pictures so that it can be completely covered.

Thanks for reading!!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

Video: I waxed my lip!!! Review and demo

Hey alllllll

The video below is the first and last time I waxed my own lip. I've never ever waxed anything except for my eyebrow, and someone else always did it. But I am a cheapie so last year around this time I purchased this wax by Family Dollar. Family Dollar is a store that sells everything from candy to lip wax. 

Now I am not sure if it's a crappy product because it's cheap, or I just did a horrible job at it. I say that because I didn't see any hair removal lol. It hurt like heck for basically no reason. 

I always buy comparable products because sometimes they really work just as goood as the actual product but this wax just didn't do what I am sure the Sally Hansen version would have done. 

It came with 36 wax strips but since there are two cellophane strips stuck together it's really half of that. It's like when you get a box of little debbie or pop tarts, they say it's 16 but technically it's only 8 because there are two per pack. 

You warm the wax up in between your palms, then separate the strips and wax the area of your choice. Once done I had to use baby oil to remove the left over wax. I think I am brave enough to get the wax warmer bowl and try eyebrow waxing next. 

I'll keep you posted!!!

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Bad Girls Club Season 12, Ep 7---what happened?

So I just got finished watching BGC and this episode, believe it or no was really interesting.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Review: Hit the Floor Season 1 ep 1-6

Soooooo here is another show I have fallen in love with. I know, I know I keep coming back with reviews for different shows. But what can I say I love TV.

So what is Hit the floor?

Thursday, June 12, 2014

What I think about.....BGC Season 12 so far!

Hey ya'll. As you may know I spend majority of my time watching internet shows and YT videos. Besides writing, reading, and the occasional shopping spree(haul coming soon) I really enjoy a lot of shows. And I am really really happy to be able to catch up on my shows now that I have the internet :)

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

What's next for me??

Hey ya'll. I am almost done with my externship. Which is such a weight lifted because now I can begin my journey in tech world. My  goal when I attended school a few months ago were to go to school, get a job in the tech world....then live happily ever after. Well I know that is never the case for me with anything. I think I just like spending money on education. The truth is I have no clue what I am supposed to do with my life. 

The crazy thing is I haven't known what I wanted out of life since I graduated the first time in 2010. I used to want to work in the fashion industry. But then I worked in the fashion industry and realized that this isn't what I thought. And I guess you can say I got scared. I am the kinda person that starts many thing but never completes them. Not because I am lazy, but it's like I get bored very easily. Especially after I am over it, and it takes me a few mins to recognize if I am over it. And that goes for everything including people. Maybe that is something I should work on. 

Let's take vlogging and blogging for example. I complained for 3 years about not having internet. Which was my excuse to not blog, or vlog but now I have the internet and I haven't made the effort to make a video or blog. The main reason I have realized is I don't get much out of it. I mean some people can make videos for mths and not get many views and be okay with it. Me I just don't care enough to make the time to edit a video that no one will watch but 100 people. I know you're probably saying what I already know....which is I am not consistent. I know I am not. I have to feel inspired to do videos and to blog. If not, it feels too forced. And I hate feeling forced to do stuff. Which gives me anxiety. Like right now I want to do a haul because I haven't done one in a while. And I really enjoyed them. But when I think about it, like do people really care about what I bought even if it's cute. Then I said I should do more OOTD. Then I said do people really care. LOL. That's just where I am right now. And I feel like that is ok. I am not really as worried about figuring it out just yet. I am okay with not making consistent postings to social media. But since there are a few people who read and watch I will continue to make more of effort to post more often.

Here are my plans for the remainder of the year. I am just going to go where the wind takes me. And luckily for me I have work experience in just about every major field (tech, sales, and medical) so finding a great career somewhere won't be hard. You have to just believe in what is supposed to be for you will be for you :)!! 

There are so many videos and articles I plan to write and record. I will get around to it. And if not, I am ok with that.


Saturday, June 7, 2014

Oh boy it just will not end....Discrimination debate is boring me!

What won't end you say???

The "natural hair debate"...... Which one you say?

LOL, because there are so many, right!

Friday, May 30, 2014

Video: Being Natural is Complex

Hey ya'll
I made this video last year to show how trying different things on my hair hair, like wash and go's just don't work alone. Hello can you say shrinkage. Well this is a mishap using Tresemme Conditioner flawless curls and Eco Styler Gel. I ended up having to twist it up because it wasn't as "shiny,curly" as most wash and go's are. Lesson learned!!

Enjoy the video below :)

Friday, May 23, 2014

I think I have readers block?!

Okay so this may not be a real thing but I think I have really am suffering from readers block. I purchased all of these things to get me inspired to write and meditate on all these goals. And I have yet to accomplish this. So I am sure this problem has risen due to me always over whelming my life. I  put so much on my plate because I feel like I should be doing something at every min of the day. I don't know if this is a disorder I have or just something that most people go through. I just try to figure everything out on my own and when I am unable to figure things out in a timely matter, I become really stressed. Which brings me to my readers block. I feel like I need to be reading all of these books I have, I feel like I should be taking notes constantly. Reading and writing affirmations all the time. Praying all the time, reading the bible all the time. On top of doing everyday life stuff. So what has happened is because I feel uninspired to do everything, I have just completely stopped doing anything. I haven't been listening to my Gabby B, nor have I been writing in my very beautiful notebook; the one I thought would inspire me to write.

I can not even begin to count how many things I've started and never really completed. There might be a name for this. But I start books, I start projects, I start journeys and I never complete them.

This frustrates me all the time.

How do I learn to just relax? I fear that I am forcing myself into an early grave because I stress about everything. Literally everything. From the time I wake up @7am until I go to sleep at about 11 pm, I am stressed about something. Which I believe is complete madness for any human being to live. I just need to learn how to relax.

So other than that, I started my Externship this week. And so far so good! :) Some times God just puts you in a place where you need to be for right now even if it's not where you'll be forever.


Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Saturday, May 3, 2014

Video: Medley of products

Hey ya'll. The video below was filmed two years ago. The reason I am posting it now is because I am fortunate enough to be able to post videos and blogs more easier now that I have my own internet. Yes I could just say let me start over, but I want you all to see the progress of my hair not just in words. I am proud of the mistakes I have made and want everyone in the natural hair community to know that no one's hair is perfect. Not does it come out perfect every time. We have to take the time to work on our hair so that we can show the world that their version of "good" hair no longer exists. And that we all have good hair because we take care of it.

In this video I did an experiment using multiple products to see what worked and what didn't.
Products used are:
Cantu Shea Butter
Miss Jessie's Curly Pudding
Tresemme Moisture Rich condish
Carol's Daughter hair milk Light

I no longer use any of these products; except when I prepoo I do use Tressemme Moisture Rich Condish. The reason I don't use them anymore is because they never really worked once I went completely natural. Which is crazy right ?? Well the Cantu Shea Butter products I do enjoy once in a while, if I run out of Shea Moisture anything I can always go back to them.
I hope this video helps you all understand the journey it took to get to where I am today and that it didn't happen over night :)

Thanks for reading

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Video: Braid out fail part 1&2, using Shea Moisture Products

Hey guys. The two videos below are the most recent ones I have posted on Youtube. I want to clarify that I love the Shea Moisture Products now and that this was a bad experience I had last summer. Also this is before I started doing the L.O.C Method. That post will be coming soon as well.

Anyhoo, I have since had really great experiences with braid outs and twist outs. I used the Shea Moisture Coconut and Hibiscus Curl and Style hair milk. Which lasted me almost a whole year because you do not need to use that much.

Part 1

Part 2
I hope that these videos clarify what reaction to using Shea Moisture products!!
Thank you so much was watching and reading.

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Barnes and Nobles Visualization Haul

              Hey my lovely readers. As I sit here listening to some old school 90's, Immature We got It album circa 95. I realized I should share my Barnes and Noble purchase from yesterday. I have been in some serious need of a notebook. But not just any kind of notebook, the experience has to be memorable and the notebook had to motivate me to want to write in it. I love writing. I have over 20 notebooks, that I can find, with notes and dreams from the time I was a kid until adulthood. I've always felt more creative when it came to writing, hence the fact that I blog more than I vlog. So I saw some nice notebooks online from the Jonathan Adler collection at Barnes and Nobles and decided to get one. I went to buy the 4 pack of smaller notebooks (4x7) but I found them to be too small. But I might go back there to pick them because I can find something to put in them. I just hate buying things when I have no purpose for them initially. It's a waste of money. 

             So instead I picked up the journal below. It's called the JRNL Dove Soft Fuchsia. It's (6x8) and has over a 100 sheets of lined paper. Which I needed of course because I'll be using this particular notebook for my visions as well as the notes I pick from the 3 books I am reading now. I really enjoyed the PDF version of Creative Visualiztion by Shakti Gawain so much that I ended up purchasing the actual book to read on the go. I am also still reading Think and Grow Rich by Napoleon Hill, and Miracles now by Gabby B. Yes I know these are a lot of books to read at once. But they all in my opinion correlate to one another in the topic of the Law of Attraction. I definitely recommend all of these books especially if you're a very open minded individual like myself. If not then I don't suggest you read them! 

I'm going to try and share some of my notes with you through out the weeks. I say try because some of the things I write are kind of private. But I am going to share what I can. :)

Thank you all so much for embarking on this new exciting journey with me

Monday, April 21, 2014

What I've been up to?? My Self Development Journey

Helurr there. I know you all are like she's always on a new discovery of something. If not hair then self discovery. Which in my opinion there is nothing wrong with either. So lately I have been feeling like something was missing in my life. I have always believed that I am destined to do more. And this is with everything. I am in school now because I was told by God to do so. But every now and then I feel like I should be doing more. Like having a career in the field that I am supposed to be in. What I am in the process of learning now is that nothing is a complete waste of time. There is a reason for everything. Where ever you are right now is where you need to be, no matter how much you hate it. Believe it or not that is getting you where you need to be.

So that's where I was stuck at in my life. I don't necessarily need to know what's in store, but I needed to change what I was doing. Because obviously what ever I was doing wasn't enough. And that was another thing I was dealing with, I was praying a lot. So I felt like by looking for another way, outside of God, to help me was cheating. Crazy right. But everyone I'm sure goes through this at some point or another in their lives. When you're trying something new that is not seen as"Godly" then you shouldn't do it. Here is how I got out of this feeling. God sends people to us in many forms, whether it is a book, or a seminar they here to help us. There is always a reason that we are where we are at every moment. So who not but God could that right!? He put me in the right position to see a video to reawaken my desire. A BURNING DESIRE to be more than I am today.

As I am questioning all of these things I came across a video by Dulce Candy about self help books she's been reading. I've always read books like how-to or trying to find yourself. But I stopped because I felt they weren't working. Which now I know the reason they weren't working. I wasn't really applying the techniques everyday as I had learned to do. So here I am watching her vid on the book haul she made. And I am like really. Yes this is what I needed. Like a jump on things. That one video got the ball rolling for me to watch and read all of these things about the law of attraction and manifestation. I guess most people would consider me an artsy type of person. A free sprinted butterfly if you will. Since doing more research on self development these key words kept popping up (and continues to pop up): manifestation, desire, energy, gratitude, awareness, subconscious vs unconscious, focus, visualization, abundance, and attraction.

I have found so much information on everything above. Esp the law of attraction. I am also reading 3 books (two audio and 1 pdf): Think and grow rich by Napoleon Hill, Miracles now by Gabrielle Bernstein, and Creative Visualiztion by Shakti Gawain. All of these books tie into what I was looking for. And although I am not completely finished with them I can definitely say they are great for self development. I also recommend watching videos on youtube esp Eckhart Tolle, Deepak Chopra, Sammy Davis has really great videos. Or google the keys words from above. So far my has changed completely and I have noticed a different attitude in the way I think now versus the way I used to think. I am also getting back into meditation and Yoga.

The next few posts will be reviews and finds of the books I am reading/listening to. I can't wait to share my findings.


Thursday, April 10, 2014

Manifestation is real!!

Hi ya'll. Omygosh two whole posts in one week. What a shocker. But no seriously I needed to get this out there to share. Isn't that what life's about, sharing. :). So yea for many years, maybe as far back as my childhood, I've "manifested" things into my life. How do I remember this you say? Well every boy I liked as a kid, rarely if ever really liked me back.

KinkyHair: I got my curls back after flatironing!!!

I was so happy when I washed my hair yesterday. My hair was in its straightened state for 3 weeks. Not sure how long is too long, but for me this was too long. I wanted to get my time, that I took to do this style, back. Which is why I really left it straight for so long.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Growing Through Life: Part 1

Hi, guys long time no chat. I would like to start off my apologizing for not being as consistent as I should be. Instead just saying an excuse of why cannot blog I'll just apologize. Since being in school these last few months I've noticed my life beginning to change. For every great thing, there has been a not so great thing. I believe in speaking things into existence, both positive and negative. Most of my life I've been in and out of becoming one with my real true self. And since being in school I've lost myself again. Not being happy, being angry, extreme negative thinking. This has stopped for a long time. Like I was doing well by doing many exercises such as praying more, I tried doing more activities that make me feel like my creative juices are flowing. I used to paint, design clothes, sketch, I absolutely have always loved cutting things out of magazines and pasting them. It is so refreshing doing the layouts of things. Making vision boards has always been fun to do as well.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

How I straightened my kinkyhair: Week1 hair diary and the tips I came up with to protect my hair

Hey Lovelys.....I hope that all is well. I wanted to share my straightening regimen with you all before I forget what I did. Now I have never straightened my hair with a flat iron since going natural because I was scared. Scared that my hair won't revert back to my wonderful kinky curly hair. I love my kinks and wouldn't change them for the world. But I, like many other kinky curlies out there, like to try new things every now and then. I began to hate using the word "natural" to describe my hair because of how the community has become towards those of us who choose to: a)wear weave, wigs, extensions, dye our hair, flat iron, blow dry, not use all natural products. All of these things people judge you for because they think there is only one way to do something.

So like I said before, I love my kinky curly hair. But just like trying new things. Anything that I can do myself safely, I'll try it!!!

Here is what I did to get started:

Monday, March 10, 2014

Kinky Hair-Tips for applying and removing marley twists

Hey lovely readers. I have officially removed my twists and thought I'd share some tips on how I applied them, took care of them and removed them.
As mentioned in a previous post I washed my marley hair before applying it to prevent irritation. And now that I've already removed my twists I can say I definitely noticed a difference in my scalp compared to past applications of synthetic hair.

  • First I made sure to cleanse my scalp properly. Although I washed my hair a week prior, it definitely makes a difference to not apply weave to dirty hair. 
  • I sectioned my hair in 4 sections (2 front + 2 back). And I started twisting in the back versus the front. It just seemed better to me to do this. In the front I made sure to part my hair down the middle and both sides because I wanted to wear my hair like that. It's best to part your hair which ever way you like to wear it normally.

Friday, February 28, 2014

Kinky Hair-Marley Twist Prep Before Application

Hi guys!!! I have decided to do another protective style. Whoooo hoooo. This style is called Marley Twists. Now I am not a professional. Meaning I have no absolute idea what the differences are between Marley Twists and Havana Twists except for the sizing, and maybe the type of hair is basically the only difference.

Monday, February 17, 2014

September 2013 Hair Regimen

Yes I know the title says September 2013 and I have changed a few things in my regimen. But this regimen might help someone out so Enjoy!!!

Hey lovelies,

I was just scrolling through my blog today and saw how far I have come since 2009. Not to mention the fact that my blog has not been very consistent, which I am almost sorry for but not only because I just love so many things. LOL. Any hoo I was going over my hair regi's and see that I haven't posted a new one in like 3 years. In three years a lot has changed, one major change is after going completely relaxer-free my hair changed. I have had ups and downs but my major hair issue is moisture, dry hair, and hair retention. I have learned a lot about my hair since my transitional period in 2010 therefore my regimen has changed multiple times through out the years. Not sure if this is a good sign or a bad sign to change your regimen so much, but hey I am human. LOL. So here is my current (by current I mean what I did the last time I washed my hair) hair routine.

My last wash day took a lot longer because I had in mini-twists therefore I had to use water and Coconut Oil to remove my twists. I also finger/wide combed detangled my hair using H2O and Coconut oil. ----This is what most people call a pre-poo

Next I used my ACV mixture on my scalp because it works for the itching I get in the crown of my head. My ingredients are
ACV= 2 parts H2O + 1 part ACV + (optional) honey

The last few times I used shampoo my hair felt frizzy, and I hated it so I went back to my own poo mixture. Those ingredients are 
Poo Mixture= 2 parts water + 1 squirt of Castile Soap ( I use the lavender Dr Bronner's version). 

Next my last two washes I've used Tresemme Naturals conditioner, which I love the way it makes my hair feel.

I made my own deep condition the wash before last, but this time around I ran out of eggs so I used Shea Moisture Deep Treatment masque. I left it on until the next day.

The next day I washed out the DC and decided I wanted to stretch my hair using the tension method, which I have described before in a previous post.

Then I styled my hair in a twist out.

To put it short
1) ACV rinse
2) Poo Mixture
3) Conditioner
4) Deep Conditoner
5) Style

I do this once ever two weeks. I used to wash or co-wash every week but changed that because I felt like my hair was getting so dry when I did. 

Depending on the day I either air dry (most likely) or blow dry (least likely).

I hope this helps someone but like I said I will more than likely in the coming months change it again. 
Thanks so much for reading

Pynkstarr /(*_*)\

Monday, February 10, 2014

DIY Senegalese Twists + Details on my process

This post was written last year around this time, but it's taken me soooo long to post it because of so many reasons. Please enjoy!!!
I was  supposed to made this post weeks ago, but besides the lack of internet I most recently suffered a head injury. I won't go to far into details of the situation but I'm getting better just neck and back pains now. Anyhoo luckily I make my posts ahead of time and can just copy and paste.

My Senegalese Twists:
I had been thinking about a protective style that would require as little maintenance as possible. Then of course I took to the place I do all my hairstyle shopping, Youtube.com. This is where I find my most inspiration, that and blogs. I saw a few people with Senegalese Twists and thought hey I could do that. After looking through some tutorials online I was able to accomplish the hairstyle.

Wash Process:
I used my usual wash process. I finger detangled the day before with EVoo and Coconut oil. Cowashed with Tressemme for curly hair, not sulfate free. After rinsing out my condish I used Cantu Shea butter as my leave in. I decided to blow dry my hair before twisting because I saw a few people do it in their vids and assumed it made your hair more manageable.  I used Dudley's creme press for my heat protectant. This process took about 2 hrs as usual. I decided to wait til the next day to twist my hair because I had put my hair through a lot with the blow dryer.

Twist Process:
It took me about 2 days to do the style. I took multiple breaks of course. It wasn't that hard to get the braid started at first but after an hr my hands got tired. I started with a braid first then the twists. I also decided to use two different colors in my hair just to switch it up a little. Next time I'll twist from the roots but that may take some practice. I plan on leaving the style in for about 3-4 weeks because I know I am gonna miss my own hair and it may frizz up.

Will I do this again?:
Yes, Although the style was time consuming I loved the outcome so it was worth it.

Not sure if it was the brand but the hair did get tangled from time to time.

Products used:
Tresemme for curly hair & Cantu Shea butter leave in conditioner & EVOO and Coconut oil <Comb
Duck clips
Sensationnel Braid now Kanekalon Fiber Jumbo braid in colors: 4 (my natural color) and M350/1B (reddish and black mixture)

All of my wash products I already had on had and I did not have to purchase anything but the hair. I used 4 packs of hair (1 pack red + 3 packs brown) they came out to $7.00.

I hope that this post was a help. I haven't had time to edit my video explanation, but stay tuned. 

Monday, February 3, 2014

DIY My Shea Butter Mixture in details part 2!!

This blog post was typed months ago......soooo it's like a Part Deux for the previous post on my shea butter mixture!!!!

My Shea Butter Mixture is no different from any other DIYourselfer. As a Natural I try my best to make my own products based off of any recipe I've seen online or TV, I then take it and make it my own. And like most Naturals I love experimenting with different oils and butters to achieve the hair and skin that will satisfy my personal needs. I have learned that in order to do this I have to be careful of what I put in my hair and on my skin. I don't always use all natural, or organic products because of cost and other issues. I do oil treatments on my face from time to time, but I also use Philosophy's Purity, which isn't natural but it works for my facial issues. I say all that to say that although I love making my own "natural" products, I also use regular products from time to time. Just because you're a Natural doesn't mean you should feel bad for not using natural and organic products all the time. This is the same argument of putting weaves and wearing wigs. Just because you do either doesn't make you any less of a natural. As far as my body is concerned I have been using Organic Coconut oil from head to toe. Coconut oil makes my skin feel so soft and has my skin glistening on a daily bases. The oil I use on my face is usually Sweet Almond Oil and I do what most call the oil cleansing method. I also use Witch Hazel as a facial toner from time to time. My go-to hair oil is Olive oil with a few drops of Rosemary oil which promotes hair growth. Jojoba oil, Castor oil, Vitamin E oil, and Shea Butter are also other oils I love to use on my skin and hair. I have decided that since I love all these products to put them all in my Whipped Shea Butter mixture. They all have their own benefits for me personally, but here are other benefits that may help most naturals.

∆∆∆∆∆ Jojoba Oil is a light oil that is used to moisturize the skin as well as the hair. "It has similar components to sebum an oily secretion of sebaceous gland which is used to lubricate the skin and hair. It's a natural antioxidant that prevents the onsets of wrinkles on skin". I mean Jojoba oil keeps your skin glowing, good for your scalp dandruff, combat acne, chapped lips, used to treat eczema and psoriasis and so much more. ∆∆∆∆∆

∆∆∆∆∆ Shea Butter whether it is the dyed version (yellow/golden) or unprocessed (white/ivory) it has amazing benefits for your skin as well as your skin. Such as Psoriasis, sun burn, antioxidant, and anti-inflammatory for both skin and scalp. ∆∆∆∆∆

∆∆∆∆∆ Although Castor oil can be thick and leave my hair sticky, I use it once in a while as a sealant. And because it is considered as a carrier oil it works well with other oils. Benefits include treats hair loss, anti-fugal, antiviral, prevent drying of the scalp, mixes well with other oils. When used properly it can give your hair and skin amazing results. ∆∆∆∆∆

∆∆∆∆∆ Coconut oil is probably my fave oil of all time mainly because I use it to cook too. It can be used alone on hair and skin, or mixed with other oils and butters. It conditions my hair very well, and many people use it as a pre-poo because of it's reconstructing abilities. Mainly because I have read that it works better on dried hair than on wet hair. ∆∆∆∆∆

∆∆∆∆∆ Although most of the butters and oils I use contain Vitamin E oil, I still add a little bit more for preservation of my mixture. It's good for dry scalp and dandruff, as well as helping to prevent split ends. ∆∆∆∆∆

All these oils have amazing benefits for hair and skin when used alone, but when used together they work even better on my hair and skin. I have posted my Shea Butter Mixture in another arcticle here 

Thanks so much for reading. 


It's a snow day!!!

So yea it's snowing.....again. Which means no class. And nothing to do. LOL. Due to my lack of data, my plan to catch up on new shows is a no go. There are just so many that I enjoy like LAHHNY, Being Mary Jane, Single Ladies....not to mention my fave YT shows such as Roomieloverfriends, That Guy, Brothers with no Game. I mean the list goes on of all the shows I like. Usually on snow days when I have class, I just do work for school to make up for the day off. But today like the last few weeks I have been so unfocused. I haven't been able to concentrate since the beginning of the year for may reasons. This is my pattern in most things in my life. I go through stages....First stage I am sooooo excited for all the possibilities that can happen, this can pertain to jobs, school, life, etc. Second stage my momentum starts to go down, this is usually after doing something for a few weeks. Yes after a few weeks of doing anything I just lose interest. I have no idea why this happens but it's been happening since I was a kid. Third stage is usually the final stage, depending on how long I decide to stick it out. But in this stage I become completely unmotivated with everything. I get so depressed and sad about everything. Then I usually quit. LOL!! Sounds bad?? Well it is horrible. Especially when you don't have $$. But in my 3rd stage I don't think about the consequences completely through as most people will do. I am the kinda person where if it's not working for me I leave. That goes for everything in my life including friendships.

This can't be normal. I mean it's my normal, but it's not normal for anyones life. At 26, you have to learn to stick with things to go through the process. I learned that today! I thought I had everything together by now but I honestly don't. AT ALL! NOT even close! I'm realizing that this is okay. You don't have to be perfect all the time, you don't have to have all the answers all the time, And it's okay if you don't know something. SO my lesson for 2014 is to be more focused on the process, but know that it is a process. Nothing will just happen for for me. I am very thankful for my family and my friends. And very grateful to be in school. Like I've said before I am a book worm, nerd, geek what ever you want to call it. And the computer program course I am taking is still amazing. I just have to not give up this time. Find the motivation from some where and become more focused.

I am definitely going to live my life through God like I have doing for the past few years. And continue on my spiritual journey because I believe that's another reason I have become unfocused. Because I haven't been communicate with God as much as I was before starting school. Which is crazy because it's because of God that I am in school. So I am going to just start trusting the process and do one thing at a time. That's another reason I haven't been focusing on school because I have been trying to focus on 100 other things as well. One thing at a time for me.

I hope you guys enjoyed this post. I am very sorry for not posting regularly, but if you read the above post then you understand why not lol.

Thanks again,

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

New Year, New Me, New You.....New Funk :(

Hi yall!! Happy New Year to you guys and your family. I am happy wayyyy wayyyy down deep that it is a new year. But on another I am wondering how will 2014 be any better for me than it was last year. Don't get me wrong, starting at the end of 2012 I came to the realization that if you think negatively, then you will get negative results. Not saying I'm not thinking optimistically about 2014, all I am saying is what will I accomplish this year that I didn't get to do in 2013. Of course only God knows the answers to that and all I can do is pray He has amazing things stored for me this year. I am just tired of hoping and nothing really happening the way I want them too. But the saying goes " Wanna make God laugh, tell him what your gonna do" or something like that. I mean I get it. I'm not in control. Is it bad that I feel a little funky about it tho?! That's right with all the blessings I have I am in a funk, on the first day of the year. SUE ME!! lol. I am allowed to not be happy ALL the time about all the things going on in my life. People always say be grateful for this, or that, okay I am very grateful for the things that I have but what about the things that I want. Or the things that I thought I wanted, but no longer want/need and now I am stuck figuring it out. :/ Maybe it's because I am almost 30 and I think I am going through a mid-mid life crisis. Having not accomplished a lot of things that I thought I would have by now. Like I am running out of time or something. Some say this happens to them in their late 20's and early 30's, well that means I have a lonnng way to go of feeling this way. I just feel so....so....blah!! Even if it's a New Year and New You, I'd like to at least see what the New ME has in store cause as of right now I have no clue. When I plan, God does His own thing, which makes me feel outta control.

I am in school because of His plan, well and my plan to. I've always loved tech so I prayed to be able to do something that I love in accordance to God's word. Well now that I am in school for tech, it doesn't feel like I am going anywhere. LOL. How crazy does that sound right. I just started school the end of NOV 2013 and I feel like I am not going anywhere. Well that is just how I feel. I love the course I am taking, although some things are slightly annoying, for the most part I am enjoying it a bunch!! But I'd like for God to tell me something!! Even a tiny hint would be suffice enough. :) ✞

Enough with the babbling or venting or being a grumpy buddy on New Year's Day!!! Back to the fun loving me that everyone adores. The thankful, grateful person I really am!!! :)

God Bless your 2014 guys!!

Ps.....I'll be back with more Natural Hair posts/videos soon!!!