Thursday, December 30, 2010

Fight the power!!

Hey Ladies, Long time no post :). I am alright, been hanging in there. No job as of yet but the journey still continues. I bring you a post to just update you and at least show that I'm okay. I pray that all my readers have a safe and prosperous New Year in 2011. Be safe and put God first in any decisions. My only resolution in 2011 is to become closer to God, Im close but not as close as I'd like to be. I feel as though for so long I neglected our relationship and called upon Him only in the time of need. I am so thankful for the friends and family of 2010. Any new friends I gained, I just want to say that I love you with all that I am. And to any old friends lost , well things happen for a reason and I still love you.

Well I am off to finish my delicious homemade turkey burger with peppers and onions with a side of fries. Yum.

Stay Blessed and Have a Happy New Year!
P.S I finally found my ↓↓↓fist hair pic↓↓↓ :D, I am soooooo happy.

Monday, December 27, 2010

My letter. .

Hello out there in internet land :)

I was sitting here and watching Celeb Rehab 4 thinking to myself how thankful I am for God. To just be there for me when I didn't even ask, or feel like He was there. I have often doubted Him for many reasons. Mostly being impatient when things were going bad, or getting worse. Often asking why me. There have been times where I felt as though God was punishing me for bad things I have done in my past to hurt people or even hurt myself. Watching different people, whether on TV or in real life, it just makes me so thankful to have God in my life. After watching this episode and thinking I could be anywhere right now and I am not, I am here in this house, in this body. Who is doing this for me, who has me in this space of my life where I know him. And it just made want to write a letter. Write God a letter of not only appreciation but of gratitude. I can only thank Him every moment of the day to show Him how I wouldn't be me without Him. Having faith and believing has kept me out of bad situations. If I ever had to write a letter it would be to Him.
Who would your letter be to?

Thank you for reading!
Forever blessed never stressed

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Teena Marie- RIP

God Bless her soul, may she rest in peace in heaven!

Saturday, December 18, 2010

I ♥ bags!

Marc Jacobs Laptop bag
Messenger bags

Marc Jacobs

Alexander Wang Duffle

I think these are like the cutest bags ever!!

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Coat and bag

dress and shoes

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Turbans are. . .

. . .cool

I love Turbans below are a few I like

So I watched. . .For colored Girls!

Hey Ladies
Since I have been unemployed, there have been movie watching all day long. Nothing else really to do except watch movies. Well I finally saw For Colored girls, and woowww!!! was it good. Tyler Perry picked a great one again. I mean who would've thought anything could top his Precious, even though Tyler wasn't the director but his name was in there somewhere. But wow. Very nice movie. Very deep. Made you think. Very interesting depiction of the play, turning it in to something like this. Makes me wonder which character would have been played by Mariah Carey.
Hope you go see it if you haven't.
Forever Blessed Never Stressed

School Daze

I just love love love School Daze for many reasons. I really enjoy the singing and being free. Mission college and Hilman were my best memories of what college was like, although fictonal, I assumed it was filled with drama, dancing and Denise Huxtable like characters. All these of watching School Daze I never appreciated how amazing there hair was. There clothing. The African influences of colors. That what Spike Lee was about, he made movies with not only meaning but also a fashion awareness that has become relevant again today.
Being natural is amazing. and being African American is just as good

Forever Blessed, never stressed

Monday, December 13, 2010

the journal of the lonely women!

Why is it that women put with so much shit from the man just for his D@#%!!

Hello Ladies.
Perhaps I am being just a lil bit to graphic, but what is it about the penis that will make a women lose all of who she is for it. You can't say its the love that keeps you around for so long, even though he treats you so wrong. What do you think you are worth lil gurl. Why do you let him take over your soul, your heart, your body. What is that makes you stay but the penis. To me that is crazy. I can never let a man take advantage of my body, my soul, all the things I have worked to hard for in my life to let him just take it away from me. Because once it is gone, you can not get it back. Your heart is forever scared, your soul is burned, your things are gone, you have nothing but you. And you might let him take that too. why can't you just wake up and see that he doesn't really love you. Nor does he want you all that much. It just upsets me to know that a person that is just flesh with a penis can ruin your life, and that any sensible person would just let him. I guess I'd just rather be alone. I've seen so many people go through so many things that it just confuses me. I just wanna shake them and say wake up lady he doesn't want you. Or he is just using you. No man who hits you is in love with you, no man who uses you for your money is in love with you, love is not that important. The love of the penis is not that important. So wake up and see that.

This is one of those moments where I just want to shake some women and tell the to WAKE UP!!!!!!

Thanks for reading :)

Forever Blessed, never stressed

Friday, December 10, 2010

A few cool ladies

Being a scrooge for the holiday season

Hello All!!!

Yes you have read correctly, I am a scrooge this season. Why such a scrooge you ask? Well, I have no reason to really be all celebratory or happy. I have never been a very enthusiastic person about Christmas the last few years anyway, only because I never get much. Except last year I got a Macbook Pro AkA And some other stuff. But that was last year. This is a new year. Also, just in case I forgot to mention my Bday is the 24th. So people automatically assume I am like this big Christmas person. But I am def not. Although I do love the songs, esp. Alvin and the chipmunks. I just want these holidays to go away and for January 1, 2011 to come here already. But then again new year and no new beginning really. I don't know, but if your an excited person for the holidays, more power to ya. Me, I will sulk until it comes and goes. Birthday is just another day, Christmas is just another day, nothing special.

Pynkstarr (Bahumbug)
Stay blessed

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Big Chop

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Are women in need of attention while in relationships?

Hello Ladies.
I know this is totally off topic of fashion but I read an article today that really made me think. The article or interview was with Music Artist Trey Songz and in it he stated that he is unable at the moment to give a women the attention she needs and that he can't check in with her. I have personally never been in any relationship where my man had to check in. I understand the fact that a man doesn't want to hurt his girl by not giving her attention. But do women really require 24/7 365 52 weeks of attention? Or are women independent enough to have a man and understand that he has his life too. Is complaining about about a women needing to much attention an easy way to get out of being in a relationship? I guess this every relationship is different and I'm sure I have at one time in my life, became a part of that nagging club. You know the why don't you (call, text, IM, FB, AOL, etc) me? Or have you ever hung out with a GF and she is constantly checking her phone wondering why hasn't her 'Man' called her in the last 20mins since they have seen each other.
I'm not saying women need constant attention from a man, but we do like to feel loved. Therefore, I agree to why most women and men stay single. No one wants to check in, and no one wants to show someone, who is perhaps psychologically incapable of realizing that their attention seeking ways really stem from something serious that may have happened in their past. I vote for single until the time is right and not needy.

Forever blessed and never stressed

Saturday, December 4, 2010

I did it!!!

Heyy Ladies
I am an official naturalista. It was time to let it go because it was soooo uneven and a annoying. I am so thankful for the natural hair God has given me. Me and my poof are gonna be the best of friends. Its all about me being me. And this is me. I am in no regrets whatsoever. I wanted to go shorter but I said it's too But I love it. I cut it myself and it actually came out way better than I thought.
I am just sooo happy to be all natural now. Never turning back either.

Forever blessed, Never stressed

Thursday, December 2, 2010


Hellerr ya'll,

So I was searching YT as usual for 'big chop' videos because I am thinking about doing my BC soon. I started so far in the back but became extremely fearful of looking like a boy. I started trying my best to think about all the beautiful women who have shorter hair than I and look like women duh. But to me in my head, I am thinking here come the stares of wow she looks like a boy. Not many of you all know this but I am extremely self conscious with everything I do. With my hair especially. I am learning that no one is really looking at you, but no no no they are looking. There is always someone watching you. Whether it is the hater or the congratulater, they are watching. So I said let me view some YT vids to become inspired about this BC. Well nothing happened. All I saw were ppl who were so beautiful and comfortable with who they were with their short hair. Or kinky long curly hair. All this did was upset me. Then I looked at my hair. And thought why can't I just cut it off my head. What is the attachment. Why does my hair look this way, or feel this way. Their hair doesn't do that or this. It was I guess you can say a jealousy thing.
I then came across a YT channel called 'sushinelovespeace' and she is totally into God. Which, if your not already aware of so am I. I am learning to listen to Him speak to me and other things too. Well, in one video she discussed how some of us are jealous of things ppl have not looking at what we may have. This is so true because I have stopped watching many channels or reading blogs just because I was jealous of someone being able to either do something I think I can't do or buy something I know I can never afford. Mostly materialistic stuff. Growing up I was never jealous, ppl were jealous of me and that made me feel powerful, like I was better than someone. I always felt as though I could one up someone just so they would be jealous of me. But as you get older you realize things aren't always what they seem. While others were jealous that I got what I wanted materialistically , they didn't know that my mom had just moved out, or that bills weren't getting paid. So while we may become jealous of someone for what they can do or what they have, its best we just take a look at all the amazing things we have that others may wish for. Like good health, or a job, or even a bank account.
I am extremely thankful for my new relationship with God. He has given a new found look on my life. No one can stop me, no one. Not my parents, friends, lovers, family, no one. And before finding Him I let everything someone did or said about me or to me affect me. I was told after a I dropped out of HS, that I would never go to college. I was told I'll never be anything. I let a teacher change my views on being an actress because she told me there was no life in that. Now I am a college graduate working on my second degree. But I didn't do that because of them I did it for me. Just like a lot of things in my life. I took jobs people told me not to take, I went places people said I couldn't go. Now was that jealousy on their part, IDK, maybe it was. I do know this no more being jealousy of things I don't understand, because look at me. I am FABULOUS. I am happy. I am a Christian. I am me. Soon to be a bigger chopped me, lol. But you get what I am saying.

Writing these posts have made me a happy women. I am so proud of this opportunity, even if no one reads, I still do this for me. No more doing things for others. It stops TODAY. Good bye Jealousy, Hello-----I guess non-jealousy---lol.
Enjoy ya'lls night

Forever blessed, and never stressed!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Rochelle Ritchie

Hello my beautiful ladies,

I was browsing my celeb blogs and came across a story featuring a beautiful women by the name of Rochelle Ricthie. Ms. Ritchie is a News Anchor in West Palm Beach, FL for channel 5. She has recently taken the transition. She has done the big chop to become completely natural. That just makes me so happy to see her do this. In the article she states how someone told her the only way she would make it was to have weaves. Like many women, she fell victim to it. Weave is not for everyone. And it is sad that long and straight means perfect. It is not perfect. Me becoming natural is the best decision I have ever made in my life. I am this close to becoming Vegan, but one step at a time right. I have also decided to do my BIG CHOP in around April, which is soo exciting. I am going to go to a professional tho...yikes can not have a mishap happen. :).
Anyhoo, for those of you who read me and do still get perms, it is okay. Going natural is not for everybody and you should do whatever makes you all happy.
Thank you for reading
Forever Blessed

PS. I finally received my College Diploma.....WEEEEEEEE!!! I am an Official college graduate!!

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Hello Lovlies,
I was doing my usual online browsing --no more shopping for me for a while-- when I came across some very nice sportswear jackets for work. On, they featured a few pieces that are very versatile that can go from day to night. I love the velvet one the best. As a youngster, I was the queen of velvet and corduroy lol. Leopard is always in, at least to me anyway. And the checkers are just something that intrigues me for some reason.

BTW: I am on an official shopping break. Not only do no longer have a job, long story, but I am saving up my money from now on. :) Wish me luck with the new career search and money saving venture I am about to partake.
Forever blessed

Friday, November 26, 2010

hair update-moldy mixture

Hola my lovelies,

The last few days have been so crazy and I haven't really had a chance to thank all of you for watching my videos or reading my blogs. Thanks you!!!!! Mwah.
Also I have joined, which is basically a one stop shop to communicate with other bloggers about beauty products. I love love love that site. So look for me at

Now on to the reasons I am writing to post. I haven't really used my spray mixtures as much as I used to so maybe that it why it became kinda ewww. I went use the spray moisturizing mixture and it turned into some nasty mold thingies floating. My dad has told me to throw it out, but I'm sad that I have to waste all that product. So my question is what did I really do wrong. I thought rosemary oil and vitamin E were both preservers. I guess not. The fact that its pretty gross to look at, I will not show you what it looks like. But I won't give up. At the moment I'm on a saving budget, therefore I can't buy anything new, but I am definitely going to make another mixture. This time Im gonna use more oils than water. And maybe some leave-in conditioner. Whatever it is I'll do, will def be posted.

Thank you,
Forever Blessed

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving.

Gray dress from Dots-$18

Happy Thanksgiving to you all and your family.
Please be safe and remember your blessings.
Always keep God first.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

Natural Hair Beauties

Just some natural hair manes that I love!!!

Goood Morning-Courses

Hello lovely people

I am on my way out this morning but really needed to express this feeling I am having. Recently I have been going through a lot of different emotions regarding my life-things like my job, money, and the usual stresses of life. I used to always have faith that if you prayed for something it should happen like right then and there. For instance, when I wrote it down, made it happen with my new job. I kept feeling like why would God put me in a position knowing I can't handle it, knowing I asked for happiness. Through all these things I had lost my faith, as discussed in a previous post, instead of gaining a stronger one. I basically reverted back to the person I used to be, not the person I want to be.
Now is the time to become the person who you know you can be. Besides the fact that I am here on earth for something, I shouldn't have gave up so easily. I didn't realize till now that I am on a course, I almost quit that course. Because it was too "hard" I wanted it to end and be over. I was sick because of it everyday. Thinking over and over bad things. Nothing was right. I couldn't get it right. But, I am on a course. Just like many of you are on courses. I am being prepared right now for something greater that I want in life, which is to be a Fashion Merchandiser. At the moment I am just not ready to do that yet. I realized this now.
I let my want for tangible things stop me from moving on and along.

And since this week is thanksgiving and I want to share with you all a verse from 1 Timothy 4:1-6
"Now the Spirit speaketh expressly that in the latter times some shall depart from the faith, giving heed to seducing spirits, and doctrines of devils; Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron; forbidding to marry, and commanding to abstain from meats, which God hath created to be received with thanksgiving of them which believe and know the truth. For every creature of God is good, and nothing to be refused, if it be received with thanksgiving: For it is sanctified by the word of God and prayer. If thou put the brethren in remembrance of these things, thou shalt be a good minister in Jesus Christ, nourished up in the words of faith and good doctrine, whereunto thou hast."

Hopefully this scripture can help someone through something they are going through. As long as you follow the courses, it will prepare you for what you are destined to be.

Thank you for reading,
XO, Pynkstarr :)

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Losing my Faith

Hi ya'll

Yes I am back with yet another post about faith. I feel as though, YT and my blog are the only two places outside from friends and family that I can actually vent and express how i feel.
Lately, I have had this string feeling that something just is not right. You know that feeling you get in your tummy when it tells you to take another route home or not to eat in a restaurant, well it's that kind of feeling but stronger for me. When I wake up daily, I always ask God what is it that I am meant to do with my life. I have always had the fear to end up with out having a plan for my life and being without anything. Anything meaning materialistic stuff. But also food, shelter, water, etc. As I get older I have began to have more and more faith that God will see me through anything. He knows the plan that I am going to take, He knows what I will do in my life. He knows.
The thing is I don't know.
A few months ago I had to leave a job because of medical and other reasons as well. I hated going there so much that I took a pay cut and reduced my hours to weekends only so I wouldn't have to go. It was making me so sick to go there, I had migraines daily and upset stomach. After I resigned, I kept doing a few days at this showroom in NYC, which I love so much. But they were unable to keep me, and since I was graduating I needed to find that FT job I was praying for. I had faith that even though I had to quit my job, God would see me through.
That's when I found the place I am at now. This place was my dream Pay and other luxuries. But it is not my dream job. I assumed, maybe I have to pay dues before I can make it big in my life. And I figured if I was meant to be here, I was meant to stay no mater what. Then things started turning into what I had gone through before in previous jobs. Anxiety attacks from the stress and being too overwhelmed, nausea, now it's dizziness.
People say why don't you leave, you don't deserve to let a job kill your body at such a young age. Then of course you have the "if it were me" friend telling you to quit. My body is even telling me to leave. So why haven't I just left.
I think it's because I had lost my faith. I say I have faith all the time, but at that moment when I got this job it went out the window. Because the first thing the popped in my mind was "you better take it, even though something was telling me not to, because this is it". If I had kept the faith, I would have known that it would've been okay to say no. It would've been okay because He would've just sent me something else.
For me to have lost faith is just absurd. All the things I have gone through and came out of, for me to lose faith and give up is just crazy.
Just please if you don't do anything else, never lose your faith. Hold on to it forever. He will always steer you in the correct path. If something tells you that it isn't right, then its not. Really listen to that feeling because it is Always right.

Forever blessed, never stressed

Saturday, November 13, 2010

jesse's girl Pigment Dusts

Lipsticks wet n wild

Wet and Wild Lipsticks/Lipgloss

Hola gurlies,
I have made some more purchases from the Wet and Wild collections. This time it's their Silk Finish collection of lipsticks. And I must say......bravo. These are the best ever I love them wayyyy better than the Longwear collection(see previous post). These last me for hours and do not leave my lips feeling dry or cracked. I apply them with my bare lips, no primer. And I also pair them up with the Wet n Wild Megaslicks Lipgloss.
The price is affordable and like all other drugstore beauty products, catch them when they are on sale.

Forever Blessed and never stressed

Review-Rimmel mascara

Rimmel's The Max volume Flash
waterproof mascara in black

Hey ladies, I am back with another review for ya'll. This is The Max by Rimmel. It's supposed to make your eyelashes super maximized. I must say that it actually does that, and besides the wand being too small it's just as good as Benefit's Bad Gal Lash mascara. Almost though.
The price for me was only $2.40 because it was on sale at Walgreens. I give it a thumbs ups for its name, The Max Vol Flash. Some people who has reviewed this has said it doesn't live up to it's name but I beg to differ. This mascara is my new thing to stock up to Black Opal's Concealer stick. If you want, wait until a drugstore has their many sales before going too crazy over this. Please catch it on sale just in case you hate it.
Oh yea, one more thing, it is definitely WaterProof . It does come off when you rub your eyes either, like some mascaras I have tried in the past....*cough maybelline great lash cough*

Well enjoy the rest of your weekend Ladies, be safe.
Forever Blessed and Never Stressed.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Eva's Dress for the 2010 ema

Who's Dress is this, and why would they let Eva's stylist (Robert Verdi who I love) ruin it. It's not very proportionate, which is a dead give because of the hem.
This is like Katie Holmes all over again.....where is Andre Leon Talley or Tim Gunn when you need them.

Forever Blessed, Never Stressed

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Review-Revlon Illuminance Cream Shadow

Revlon Illuminance cream shadow in Black Magic

After seeing this in mags for the last year or so, I have finally been able to purchase it because it was on sale at Walgreens for 50%. While I was sorta excited to try out cream shadows for the first time, I also knew there would be an issue. Maybe it's because I primed my eye or maybe because I applied this with a brush, I don't know. But applying this as a base on one eye didn't work nor did applying it with other shadows. It creased so badly, left my eyes looking cray cray. I do like the black shadow, more than the others, as a base color.
Maybe I did something wrong or applied it wrong. I will give it ago again tomorrow and see how it turns out, but for now they get a D-. Only because the colors are very cute :).

Forever blessed, never stressed!

Friday, November 5, 2010

Review-Wet and Wild Mega Last Lip color

Review of Wet and Wild Mega Last Lip Color!!!

(L to R) Ravin Rasin, Just Peachy,Think Pink,Vamp it up, and Bare it All

Hola Chicitas,

I bought these lip sticks about a month ago, and have been using them since then. I was gonna post like a haul and tell you to go out and catch the sale, but I got so sidetracked due to my job. Not having enough time to take the pictures and post them, or even write a full fledged review. Now you may ask what makes me an expert on makeup to review it? Well I have been wearing cosmetic products since I was 4 or 5. I know it's young to many but it was just lip gloss or colored glosses. Plus my aunt would sneak it on me because she was a makeup artist. So, I may not be an expert but I know a lottt.
Lets get to it shall we.

I purchased two colors because of the sale at Walgreens (20% off). Then I fell so in love with them, I went back and bought 4 more colors. (at the time of pictures one color was missing ={).

Price: $2-3 (wait for the sales to get them cheaper)
Packaging: Horrible. Its gets an F because if you twist the tube too much it the whole thing comes out. Also, the black stuff on the base from the tube on two of the tubes came off in my hands. Gross.
Quality: In order to not have that cracking on your lips you'd have to wear a primer, or you can just reapply all day. The quality isn't gliding. But after a few coats, is goes on smooth.
Grade: C+, only because I love the colors and it does last a long time.....which can be good for some and not others.

Try for yourself and let me know.

Stay blessed and never stressed =)

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

If you died and when to heaven, what would heaven look like?

Marshmallows and filled with happy ppl

Ask me anything

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Giuseppe Zanotti-shoes

Need these in my life!!!!!

Saturday, October 30, 2010

✝Transitioning your life for God or others?✝

Hey Ladies,
Hope you all are having a fabulous safe weekend.

This week has been so hectic to the point where my whole life plan is in question. What am I really supposed to be doing right now in my life? That is the question I have been asking myself since I graduated college. Should I go on to pursue more endeavors or should I stay in school. Maybe get that perfect straight out of college F.T. job.

This wasn't my case. I had prayed for a place that was all of these qualities:
Had to have nice hours (9-5 ish)
Had to respect me as a person
Great benefits
Appreciative of my hard work
Good pay
Can't be sales/retail
Small family business
And most importantly; Location can't be too far.

I found all of these things in the place I am at now, or so I thought. I remember a manager once told me never let someone stop your money. Meaning no matter how hard a job is, stick with it. I think a lot of people don't understand what you go through until you are in the position. It's easy to tell some one to stay in a relationship that they are unhappy in. Or that friend that always say's "well if it were me" to everything, knowing dern well if it were them they'd do the same thing you are and feel the same way. My frustration isn't with the people, it's not really with anyone. My issue is what is it in my life that I need to change in order to be that successful person I know that I am destined to be.
If you have that kind of connection with God, then you can feel when you are doing the right thing and when you are doing the wrong thing. And something about hearing from this job said it was wrong. Then there was another part of me that said this was what you have prayed for, God has done this for you.
As blessed as I am for the support I have received from so many people, I have decided to make a new plan. And just like my hair, I'm taking a step to also transition my life. Because at the end of the day although I have this wonderful plan for my life, God is the one that is the main driver of the plan. I may think I'm in control of this, but He is the one that is really in control. Life is of course what you make it, but He holds the power in the end.
My new list is still the same except I added team work and family oriented to the list.

I hope that everyone who is having issues like this one, they take a moment to think about God, and what it is He is telling you to do. He is speaking to you, you just have to really listen.

Forever Blessed, never Stressed

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Asos Africa

Hey Ladies
While reading Essence Mag the other day, and came across an article that features ASOS's new line that features clothing that represents Africa. With African inspired fabrics, which I have been loving, they have developed about 30 pcs in the range from maxi dresses, skirts, shorts, pants, hand bags etc.

I have selected a few items that I have fallen in love with and may order them soon before the price goes up.

ASOS AFRICA Printed Cross Back Cami Top $20.22

Forever Blessed.