What's next for me??

Hey ya'll. I am almost done with my externship. Which is such a weight lifted because now I can begin my journey in tech world. My  goal when I attended school a few months ago were to go to school, get a job in the tech world....then live happily ever after. Well I know that is never the case for me with anything. I think I just like spending money on education. The truth is I have no clue what I am supposed to do with my life. 

The crazy thing is I haven't known what I wanted out of life since I graduated the first time in 2010. I used to want to work in the fashion industry. But then I worked in the fashion industry and realized that this isn't what I thought. And I guess you can say I got scared. I am the kinda person that starts many thing but never completes them. Not because I am lazy, but it's like I get bored very easily. Especially after I am over it, and it takes me a few mins to recognize if I am over it. And that goes for everything including people. Maybe that is something I should work on. 

Let's take vlogging and blogging for example. I complained for 3 years about not having internet. Which was my excuse to not blog, or vlog but now I have the internet and I haven't made the effort to make a video or blog. The main reason I have realized is I don't get much out of it. I mean some people can make videos for mths and not get many views and be okay with it. Me I just don't care enough to make the time to edit a video that no one will watch but 100 people. I know you're probably saying what I already know....which is I am not consistent. I know I am not. I have to feel inspired to do videos and to blog. If not, it feels too forced. And I hate feeling forced to do stuff. Which gives me anxiety. Like right now I want to do a haul because I haven't done one in a while. And I really enjoyed them. But when I think about it, like do people really care about what I bought even if it's cute. Then I said I should do more OOTD. Then I said do people really care. LOL. That's just where I am right now. And I feel like that is ok. I am not really as worried about figuring it out just yet. I am okay with not making consistent postings to social media. But since there are a few people who read and watch I will continue to make more of effort to post more often.

Here are my plans for the remainder of the year. I am just going to go where the wind takes me. And luckily for me I have work experience in just about every major field (tech, sales, and medical) so finding a great career somewhere won't be hard. You have to just believe in what is supposed to be for you will be for you :)!! 

There are so many videos and articles I plan to write and record. I will get around to it. And if not, I am ok with that.

Pynkstarr

Dreams

So I am not sure if you all are into the whole dream interpretation thing, but I am. I believe that your dreams are something that are real or will come true. My dreams lately have been deemed as bad dreams, but to me it is just another reason. I never had the chance to look it up until today, because I actually got hurt in my dream. I was being chased again in my dream, which has happened just about everyday for the past couple of weeks now. But this dream I got shot. Not just shot but in my heart right in my heart. And there was no blood at all. I was just shot. It was like in a warehouse or something. My mom and her BF was there. I think so was Dog the bounty hunter. Lol. After I arrived to the hospital I was put in a room with pregnant women and by the time I was gonna have the bullet removed, I woke up. So this afternoon when I woke up I Googled what the main symbols were. Like the bullet in the chest, not just the chest but the heart. The hospital room with pregnant women. Running and being chased.
The definitions were basically that I was running from something. Like I had anxiety or distress of something or a jealousy. And another site said I was running from my goals or that is something I need to accomplish I keep putting off. They also said that being shot in the chest can mean I am under a lot of pressure. All the symbols were to me and my dad portrayed as if I was going to die or something bad was going to happen. But in fact none of them means death at all. Nor does it mean injury. If you are ever curious about your dreams, you should Google it. Maybe there is something interesting you will find.
Well I am off to watch Millionaire Matchmaker.
See Ya
Pynkstarr
Forever Blessed, Never stressed