Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Red vs Nude

To go red or to go nude? That really is the question that needs to be answered. One min the trend for lip shade is red, next thing you know the color is nude. But how can a girl choose. They say depending on the color you choose, it can be detrimental to your whole entire look. I say, if the trend doesn’t work for you, then don’t work IT. 

Happy Birthday to Tatyana Ali

Yesterday was Tatyana Ali's bday, and my connection would not let me upload a picture at all. But Happppy Birthday!!!

With Love,

My old mindset

This blog post should become titled as “personal diary entry #1”, because it’s definitely a look into my life at the moment. I consider myself to be pretty open with my readers and watchers, but there are some things I kind of feel are wayyy too embarrassing to express to people.

My old mindset

This blog post should become titled as “personal diary entry #1”, because it’s definitely a look into my life at the moment. I consider myself to be pretty open with my readers and watchers, but there are some things I kind of feel are wayyy too embarrassing to express to people. I have always had the fear of being judged or made fun of for whatever reason. Call me self-conscious. I just enjoy being loved and being respected 24/7. I know that isn’t reality, but in my mind the world is made of pink bunnies and teddy bear hugs all the time. When you begin to grow up into adult hood this reality or dream disappears. So I try to hold on to it as much as possible by not doing certain things in public view, say YT. 
For the longest time I could not for the life of me possibly think why would I have found the interest to make videos on YT or make a blog in the first place. Let me back up to around 2007, when someone told me I could watch videos for free on YT. I said get out of here, free is my middle name. Well they did have some old TV shows and movies here and there but it wasn’t quite my cup of tea. I mostly would use Yahoo Music! to watch music videos or would just be so out of touch I’d forget about it all together. By 2009, I was unemployed and a fashion student that needed a video to use in a power point for school. 
This is when I found very famous fashion/beauty guru. She was listed in my “suggestion box”, which was weird because I had no idea how she got there. So I clicked and watched her vids and the next thing you know I had spent a whole day watching her. After that, I began watching so many other “gurus” that it became kind of obsessive. I learned so much in such a short amount of time. I began hitting that sub button so much that it was to like 400 subscriptions. That’s a lot I know. Here is where things go bad. I began to beat myself up after a while because I wasn’t like them. I mean they had the nice apartments, all the great collections, hauls galore, and lots of money. To me they were so important. I wanted to be them and had to be them and fast. I began thinking why don’t I have that kind of money. Maybe I should join the army or maybe sell my stuff to get more stuff to be just like them. 
Then I learned how much they got paid just to sit in front of a camera. I said wow; I am in the wrong business. The hauls made me sad but happy all at once. Then after I started writing to them some wouldn’t write back, making me feel bad. Was I not good enough? Is it because of this or that? A lot of things started running through my head. By the end of 2009, I had begun making my own videos on YT for my own personal selfish reasons. TO MAKE $!! That’s it. That was the only reason. I saw the life that these people lived and to me it was so glamorous and it had led so many to so many glamorous opportunities. I also started writing my blog in Sept 2009. Things for both were extremely slow. And I was making videos, which I thought others wanted to see. Hauls, outfit of the days, all that good stuff. I posted blogs that I thought would get me the hits. When I didn’t get any subbies, and no followers, it was a serious blow to my ego. Esp. when you put all the time and effort into editing vids and capturing pics to write on your blog. I felt like a failure. Then as time went on I began to realize it was my entire fault. 
Number 1) I never promoted my stuff. YouTube and blogging were never my first priorities. All I wanted was the money. I wanted the fame and lights. Oh yea can’t forget about the free products. 
Number 2) My hopes were in the wrong place. Like I said money was always the main things on my mind. 
Number 3) I never updated regularly. I had had no really good excuse to not upload vids, except for during the week of finals at the time or work. I just couldn’t understand why I couldn’t get the views or the hits. So I gave up completely. 
Then I just started posting things that I wanted to. And it just began to not matter to me anymore. If people watched or read, cool, if not then oh well. Next thing I know the blog started getting so pretty okay views. I mean nothing to brag about, but okay views. I felt like if blogging was what I wanted to do then hey I will continue to do it. It was exciting hearing people say they liked my blog. Then in June 2011 I lost my internet and that was all she wrote. After that my dog died. Then my aunt (who is still in a comatose state) got sick with brain tumors. I was able to find a connection way up high in my house to still post blogs. When I got up the “umph” to post things, in which I was up to about 1200 views a month, I no longer could afford my domain name. This made it hard for some folks to find me. Then I just gave up completely. (I’ll make another post on my recent depression some other time.) 
So where am I now with all this? Well for one, I no longer feel obligated to fulfill the need of fitting in with the Joneses or “gurus/bloggers”. Also, as of Jan2011 I began my journey to find God; meaning to become more spiritual and closer to Him. Living through the Word of the Lord. And this year I started reading and actually understanding the bible way more now than ever. Two lessons I have learned and that is that when you seek “riches” instead of Christ, it just never ends up well. And secondly, I have to do His plan and not mine; meaning His will His way. That is just how it is. And until a lot of us understand that we will always be soooooo frustrated with life instead of living the happy and peaceful life that God wants us to. 
So all those times of frustrations and wanting what other people had, I didn’t understand what they did to get where they were. Nor do I know if that is/was my destiny to be that person. Although I still gripe about certain things like views or followers, I am slowly learning that some things just are not meant to be. And that I am NOT always being punished, which is my answer to everything.  God is such a mighty God and I can never give Him too much love. So I will continue to post things when I have a connection. Nothing will change in that. Only thing that will change is my mindset and the reasons I post things or make videos in the first place. There is no behind the scenes motives any more but just me at my purest of hearts.   I am very glad to have gotten all of this off of chest. Thanks for reading guys!


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

NAACP award noms 2012

First let me say that I am sooooo happy for all the nominees. But I have special shout out to the following folks. I love the NAACP awards. Aren't sure what they are? Think BET awards but older and more mature.

Congrats to Tatyana Ali for her noms for Love that Girl TV series “Outstanding Comedy Series” and “Outstanding Female Actress in a comedy”. I love this show. It is super hilarious. 
Jill Scott received a ton of noms including “Outstanding Female Artist”. I just really love just about all of the songs that I have heard so far from her latest album, which is nominated for Outstanding Album.
Bet alone was nominated for 15 noms. Their hit shows are “The Game” and “Reed between the Lines”  . 
Gabourey Sidibe “Outstanding Supporting Actress in a Comedy” {The Big C}
Tracee Ellis Ross {Reed bwn the lines} Wendy Raquel Robinson and Tia Mowry-Hardrict {The Game} “Outstanding Actress in a Comedy”
Damon Wayans Jr. “Supporting Actor in a Comedy”  {Happy Endings}
Taraji P. Henson for “Person of Interest” {Outstanding Actress in a Drama}
"Oprah Presents: MasterClass" (OWN :OprahWinfreyNetwork) {Outstanding Variety Special}
I Smile by Kirk Franklin {Outstanding Song} , which is my fave song right now. I just love the spiritual message it brings.
Jumping the Broom {Outstanding Motion Picture}
Kim Waynes for "Parish"
As you can see there are just so many to name. Check out the rest here.


How to: Fashion lookbook

How to make a Fashion Style notebook Part .2

 This is part II of my fashion binder tutorial:

Step 1. Find mags that are inspirational to you and the kind of binder you want to make.

I then put all of my supplies together like my scissors, page protectors, construction paper, markers, colored pencils, etc.

Whatever gets you in the crafty mood. Stickers too!
Each page I do usually has a theme which makes it easier for me to find when i need inspiration for a certain color or a particular style. I can even pull out the page i want whenever I go shopping so I don't have to bring the whole binder with me. The issue is I have run out of mags to use and page protectors. I also need to buy a bigger binder than the one I store them in now only because it is becoming a bit over crowded and my binder is growing into color swatches. The binder also helps me with my sketches. I hope this helps you all. Scraping for as a hobby is so relaxing and therapeutic for me. It takes my mind off of life's problems and tribulations. Thanks so much for reading. Stay tuned for the final project.
p.s. email me some of your scraping ideas

With Love,

Oscar Noms for 2012

I am just super duper excited for this upcoming Award Season. We now have the noms for the Oscars 2012. I want to say Congrats to Viola Davis and Octavia Spencer. I am super ecstatic for them both. And I also want to congratulate Jonah Hill, who I have loved ever since Superbad :). I have never seen Hugo, but they have like 12 noms or more. Congrats to them.

With Love,

Congrats to Sanaa Lathan

Congrats to Sanaa Lathan being the new face of Pantene ProV


Sunday, January 22, 2012

Stuff People Say To Natural Girls & Behind Their Backs!

Pretty funny video


Saturday, January 21, 2012

RIP to Etta James

 She will truly be missed


Fashion Style Notebook Part 1

Hey all. As some of you already know I love me some fashion. I just always have ever since I was a little girl. Playing dress up and Barbie's were my life back then. When I was about 11 or 12 I became a magazine addict. I mean a really bad one too. First there were the Cosmos my mom used to find at the airport she worked at. Then I went to more age appropriate mags like Teen People, YM, Twist, Seventeen, Cosmogirl; you get the drift. Around this time I also started scraping notebooks for my fav band at the time; BSB. As well as scraping just for fun. Cutting up my magus. And from there on I continued to cut and paste.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Little Something Something #1~Who Are You?

I love me some Missp. She is hilarious and very inspirational. I like to watch REAL people on YT. Nothing against the fakes :) Follow her on twitter as well. @misstp90


Saturday, January 14, 2012

Brandy's Suit on Wendy Willams

When I was watching Brandy on Wendy the other day I kept thinking how beautiful her suit looked. Although I know she was cold... but that's another story.
The suit is by designer Stella and Jamie. I am pretty sure it was custom made because of the fit of the shorts. But it is the best suit I have seen in a min.


Looking good Solange!

Solange is doing her thang. I have always loved her because she was always so real and never held back anything from people. She reminds of how Brandy was when she first came out, they had an old soul since teen years. And that showed in their music. Congrats to Solange on the new gig.

With Love,

Saturday, January 7, 2012

will be back soon!

Heyy all. I know I have been MIA for a min, but I will return as soon as I can. There is a lot going on right now. Hope you all understand. Muah XOXO

With Love,