My 1st Marley Loc experience

     Back in august I made the decision to finally try out Marley Locs. I had been admirer of this hairstyle for a few years now after looking at all of the pictures on Pinterest and videos on YT. I just never wanted to try it because it looked like too much work. Which it later turned out to be.

Kinky Hair-Tips for applying and removing marley twists

Hey lovely readers. I have officially removed my twists and thought I'd share some tips on how I applied them, took care of them and removed them.
As mentioned in a previous post I washed my marley hair before applying it to prevent irritation. And now that I've already removed my twists I can say I definitely noticed a difference in my scalp compared to past applications of synthetic hair.

• First I made sure to cleanse my scalp properly. Although I washed my hair a week prior, it definitely makes a difference to not apply weave to dirty hair. 
• I sectioned my hair in 4 sections (2 front + 2 back). And I started twisting in the back versus the front. It just seemed better to me to do this. In the front I made sure to part my hair down the middle and both sides because I wanted to wear my hair like that. It's best to part your hair which ever way you like to wear it normally.

Happy Holidays!!

Hi y'all out there in blogger land. It's been a long time I know. This is quite redundant right but until I have the appropriate time to blog it's going to be this way.
Now as much as I do love blogging there just really isn't enough time in the day to post every single idea I have....and I have a lot. Like trips I take, hair suggestions, ootd, fotd, hauls, spiritual inspiration...you name I've thought of posting. But when you add all the factors of school, social life, rest, and just plain old laziness; well I just never make the time. Not to mention I know what kinda blog I want to have and until I can make my website the way I know will help so many people, I just haven't had the motivation.
Other than that how has everyone's holiday season been treating them?? Blessed I hope!! :-)
Well as some may know from past posts my birthday is near the holiday, plus I do celebrate Christmas so I had a blast. Ugh and before I know it I'll be back in class. Which I love but I need a break every

Blogtober day 10 2013-Gratitude; 99 things we are thankful for

Okay so I won't be typing in all 99 things but I will use 10 things.
This was posted this morning, at a time way before I wake up usually. I'm always cranky when woken up before my body clock wakes me up usually around 10-11( don't judge me) but this morning again I was awakened out of my sleep. Which isn't a big deal when you finally get your thoughts together, but at the time all these crazy things run through your mind. Then I saw this tweet from Iyanla stating that we should be grateful for things that seem small and to take the hour listing 99 things we were thankful for #thankfulthursdays.

Here are 10 things/ people I am thankful for:

1) God
2) My dad...best man in the world
3) My mommy... she's so strong, encouraged me to take care of my body.
4) Food in my stomach... none in my fridge right now but I just ate the best chk and broc from the Chinese food store.
5) Heat and hot water...seems so simple but unless you've been without you have no idea how amazing they are
6) My health
7) Roof over my head
8) Waking up this AM...although I love my sleep I am always thankful to wake up and ask God what He wants me to do today.
9) My friend Wes... he's always always here for me even when I don't ask for him to be I know he's got my back.
10) My mind...yes it is a terrible thing to waste. I keep my mind active by staying creative, doing puzzles etc. As we get older besides our bone mass the first thing that goes is the brain. Keep it active!!

Wow that was easy. But like I said I have a lot of things and people to be thankful for. God didn't make a mistake where he made us so let's be thankful for everything He has given us.

Pynkstarr

Blogtober Day 7--Im almost 30...

God has an amazing way of telling me things. As most of you know I've been without any employment for 3 years now. I've applied to hundreds of jobs and only one interview. At least 4 times I missed a call/email for a potential job because of lack of phone service and internet service.
I still apply to jobs here and there but probably not as much as most people who are unemployed. Here is the reason. I can't settle. I know you are probably like well anything is better than nothing right? Although true for most, but from past experiences this is not the case for me. I've been hospitalized because of medical things that happened to me because I had that mentality. I hated my job so much because I began settling that it began to make me sick. Very sick. Depressed, ill, migraines, anxiety attacks... you name it. But I was making money, which is better than being broke right? Gotta pay those bills...gotta buy those clothes, gotta keep up with the joneses right? And because of these things I've always felt like i made a mistake. Although nothing is truly a mistake with my life. I've made choices I regret, but they were never mistakes.

Since I was younger I knew I was supposed to start my own business. I've always known this. But some how along the way it's like I forgot. And when I did remember i made an excuse as to why I couldn't do this or that. Meanwhile I was getting older and began to feel like I haven't accomplished much like most people my age. I don't have a driver's license, no car, never owned anything major like property, don't have my BA yet which delays my MA which delays my Phd...plus I'm almost 30.

I've been trying since 2010 to start a business....notice I say a business because I've tried many things and when the slightest setback occurs I'd give up. Between not having money to survive, and other life issues I put that dream a way. And now 3 years later I've picked it up again. All of them. Why not right? I regret giving up so easy but now im back to work. After reading #xonecole of necolebitchie.com she inspired me even more that (a) God was listening when I told him I was too old to start a business (b) everything comes in do timing, we just have to be patient.

You're never too old to do your thang!! Please remember this!

Thanks for reading,
Pynkstarr

Appreciating me

Appreciating who you are. And what you got.

top 12 most inspiring people and counting

People that have changed my life

After God of course, there are a few people I look up to because they have changed my life in so many ways.

12) Sara Blakely 

The founder of the underwent company Spanx. After reading her article in Forbes magazine a few weeks ago, her story definitely gave me some encouragement as a young business women.

11) Kimora Lee Simmons
I wrote an article about her when I was younger. She is just an amazing person a great mom and business women.
10) Wendy Williams

After listening to her show for so many years, reading her books, and now watching her in TV I can't help but be inspired by her.

9) Martha Stewart and B.Smith

These women both have inspired me to be more creative with everything from crafts to cooking to home decor.

8) My bosses from my internship

They the best bosses anyone could have asked for. They inspired me to take chances, and gave me the confidence that no other boss has given me. They helped me find my true calling in the Fashion Industry as well.

7) Elle Woods

Although a fictitious character, she was the most bubbly person I could have ever fallen in love with on the big screen. Watching 'Legally Blonde' inspired me to pursue fashion a lot more seriously. Plus all the pink brought out a new side of me, it became my favorite color.

6) Tyler Perry

Having been on the balls of my ass multiple times in my life, not knowing where my next meal was, or if I'd have a place to live has made an extremely strong person. But knowing what a success he turned out to be makes me a confident person. He just has it going on. He is very humble and uses his name to employ tons of people. Plus, he is friends with my number 5.

5) Oprah Winfrey

There was a point in my life where I didn't get Oprah. I believe it was my age. But now I am so thankful for her being so amazing. She shines the light on so many subjects that need to be known. She is also humble and an extremely hard worker. Being an African American or a women in news didn't stop her from being basically unstoppable.

4) My Aunt Leslie and Nana

There was a time in my life when there were just certain things my mom just wasn't into doing or talking about with me or I just couldn't talk to her about. But I was fortunate enough to have lived with my aunt and grandmother basically all my life. These two women showed me a lot of girly things like about makeup (my aunt is a beauty connoisseur), life as a women, unwanted advice about men (but I still listened). I'll just always love them for being there for me when I needed that motherly figure.

3) The life coaches from the TV show 'Starting Over'

The women on this show helped me with me. Before I found a spiritual connection with God, I used to take advice from TV shows. They were the best thing I needed at that time. I used to cry and do the exercises along with the house guests. Towanda Braxton was on there as well. They were just so inspiring. I really wish they were still on TV. Or at least on DVD.

2) Joyce Meyer

There are so many tele-evangelists on TV right now who are just sooo judgmental towards people who donate money, or download their podcasts. They say things at times that just leaves a nasty tasty in my mouth. She is so far from that. She goes deep into what she has gone through then she talks about how she got through it. She doesn't pretend that she never had a past life with all the 'you' talk. It's more of 'we' or 'us'. I get her emails, letters, magazines, podcasts. I am such a fan.

1) My Dad

This guy right here is my angel. He saved me from things that tried to defeat me in the past. There was a time where I took him for granted or didn't realize and understand how lucky I am to have a great father. He is not just a great father, he is a jack of all trades. We talk about everything and he gives the best advice. He is the first person, and at times the only person I call when I am upset, stressed out, unhappy. He is just very easy to talk to and the best dad any girl could ever ask God for. And I just love him :)

With Love,

Pynkstarr

50 Shades of Grey

 I have had this crazy issue that has been bugging me for the past few weeks now. It involves the new best-selling read called '50 Shades of Grey'. No I have not read this book so I won't be judging the words of the actual book. But the words and reviews of others from news personalities, to everyone else.

Dealing with anxiety

I have had issues with anxiety since I was a freshmen in HS. I just remember the summer before HS I had to do a book report along with questions and vocabulary. It was basically an entire notebook if stuff. This was all due the first week of school. I wasn't just nervous because I was going to be at a new school, but I was nervous because before this I hadn't really taken school that seriously. I just went with the flow of things.

Keeping the faith

Keeping your faith can hard at times. So I wrote a blog to help in anyway I can.

Read it here.
Thank you so much for reading

With Love,

Pynkstarr

How keep my faith!

I want to help people. 

Okay yes!  I know this already, but how can I do that is the question? I have been feeling like I need to help someone or people for years now but I never pursued that feeling. I never considered this urge to be from God necessarily meaning ministry or testimonial, but being able to help in anyway I could. Now I am stuck with the question of how.

I rely on God and no one else.

God is good. I just would like to say that because without Him I would not have all the love that I have. With that being said, I have been lacking inspiration and energy. There could be a number of reasons for this. I am soo used to having the money, funds to just go out and buy essentials of life. Now that I have no money coming in what so ever, I find it very hard to, I guess you can say function. Some days are great days, some days are like I won't get out of bed for hours. A few years ago when I was about 16 and 17, I wasn't in HS anymore because I had to drop out, my dad had lost hos job. We had not many things. I mean times were bad then, but I wasn't in the place then that I am now. I have more trust in God now then I did when I was younger.

I never really was the religious person that most of my friends were. I went to Catholic school all of my life and was basically told by many teachers and students that God didn't know who I  was because I had no religion. And that when I died I would go to some place called the Limbo. No matter what I did who cared because God was not watching me anyway. So for years I lived my life this way. Then in 2007-2008 I met these girls who went to church every Sunday, then were not religious but they would talk about God all the time. I just stayed away from that topic because it just wasn't who I was back then. So one day I said hey I want to go to church on New Year's with you guys. And I must say that the Pastor was speaking to me. I had never even met him, but it was like God heard me some how and told him to speak to me. Since then my life has been a roller coaster. I no longer go to that church, no longer friends with those girls, I was able to get jobs and graduate from college. Happy one min and then not happy. A lot has happened to me since then, but never felt as low as I do now. I think a lot of it had to do with always having something.

When I quit my first job my dad paid my bills until I found a job. When I stopped working again to start college, I had something going for me. I just always had something going for me, or people to help me. I mean I never relied on God, just people, for all of my life. That was how I worked. Now that I have no job, not in the place I want to be at 24 years old, living situation not so good, I mean wayyyyy worse I feel then before. But I am saying God is good, because now I see where I lacked before. Relying on God is the only way to go for me. When I relied on people it worked for a little while but not forever. God is forever. And since I have been relying on Him, esp in the last year or so, things have been awesome. I mean some people may look at my situation and think damn I feel bad for her, but I say don't feel bad for me. Because of this situation I am in right now, if it wasn't for it, I would still be moving and on the go depending on people. I am extremely blessed to have come to this realization now rather than later. I prayed to be closer to Him, and now I am.

Now although I do rely on God, I still get a little bit in a funk about a lot of things. I really want to write posts and make videos, but some days I really can't because I am not completely there yet in my life to be all happy go lucky. Am I having a pitty party? YES!! Am I a little upset about somethings? Absolutely!! I just don't want to make a video that is forced. Or write a post that isn't how I feel. I tried that for a while and didn't help me at all. I just need to now work on somethings before I can be that extremely gitty person from before. I promise to come back better than ever. Just pray for me. Thank you for reading.

With Love,

Pynkstarr

My old mindset

This blog post should become titled as “personal diary entry #1”, because it’s definitely a look into my life at the moment. I consider myself to be pretty open with my readers and watchers, but there are some things I kind of feel are wayyy too embarrassing to express to people. I have always had the fear of being judged or made fun of for whatever reason. Call me self-conscious. I just enjoy being loved and being respected 24/7. I know that isn’t reality, but in my mind the world is made of pink bunnies and teddy bear hugs all the time. When you begin to grow up into adult hood this reality or dream disappears. So I try to hold on to it as much as possible by not doing certain things in public view, say YT. 

For the longest time I could not for the life of me possibly think why would I have found the interest to make videos on YT or make a blog in the first place. Let me back up to around 2007, when someone told me I could watch videos for free on YT. I said get out of here, free is my middle name. Well they did have some old TV shows and movies here and there but it wasn’t quite my cup of tea. I mostly would use Yahoo Music! to watch music videos or would just be so out of touch I’d forget about it all together. By 2009, I was unemployed and a fashion student that needed a video to use in a power point for school. 

This is when I found very famous fashion/beauty guru. She was listed in my “suggestion box”, which was weird because I had no idea how she got there. So I clicked and watched her vids and the next thing you know I had spent a whole day watching her. After that, I began watching so many other “gurus” that it became kind of obsessive. I learned so much in such a short amount of time. I began hitting that sub button so much that it was to like 400 subscriptions. That’s a lot I know. Here is where things go bad. I began to beat myself up after a while because I wasn’t like them. I mean they had the nice apartments, all the great collections, hauls galore, and lots of money. To me they were so important. I wanted to be them and had to be them and fast. I began thinking why don’t I have that kind of money. Maybe I should join the army or maybe sell my stuff to get more stuff to be just like them. 

Then I learned how much they got paid just to sit in front of a camera. I said wow; I am in the wrong business. The hauls made me sad but happy all at once. Then after I started writing to them some wouldn’t write back, making me feel bad. Was I not good enough? Is it because of this or that? A lot of things started running through my head. By the end of 2009, I had begun making my own videos on YT for my own personal selfish reasons. TO MAKE $!! That’s it. That was the only reason. I saw the life that these people lived and to me it was so glamorous and it had led so many to so many glamorous opportunities. I also started writing my blog in Sept 2009. Things for both were extremely slow. And I was making videos, which I thought others wanted to see. Hauls, outfit of the days, all that good stuff. I posted blogs that I thought would get me the hits. When I didn’t get any subbies, and no followers, it was a serious blow to my ego. Esp. when you put all the time and effort into editing vids and capturing pics to write on your blog. I felt like a failure. Then as time went on I began to realize it was my entire fault. 

Number 1) I never promoted my stuff. YouTube and blogging were never my first priorities. All I wanted was the money. I wanted the fame and lights. Oh yea can’t forget about the free products. 

Number 2) My hopes were in the wrong place. Like I said money was always the main things on my mind. 

Number 3) I never updated regularly. I had had no really good excuse to not upload vids, except for during the week of finals at the time or work. I just couldn’t understand why I couldn’t get the views or the hits. So I gave up completely. 

Then I just started posting things that I wanted to. And it just began to not matter to me anymore. If people watched or read, cool, if not then oh well. Next thing I know the blog started getting so pretty okay views. I mean nothing to brag about, but okay views. I felt like if blogging was what I wanted to do then hey I will continue to do it. It was exciting hearing people say they liked my blog. Then in June 2011 I lost my internet and that was all she wrote. After that my dog died. Then my aunt (who is still in a comatose state) got sick with brain tumors. I was able to find a connection way up high in my house to still post blogs. When I got up the “umph” to post things, in which I was up to about 1200 views a month, I no longer could afford my domain name. This made it hard for some folks to find me. Then I just gave up completely. (I’ll make another post on my recent depression some other time.) 

So where am I now with all this? Well for one, I no longer feel obligated to fulfill the need of fitting in with the Joneses or “gurus/bloggers”. Also, as of Jan2011 I began my journey to find God; meaning to become more spiritual and closer to Him. Living through the Word of the Lord. And this year I started reading and actually understanding the bible way more now than ever. Two lessons I have learned and that is that when you seek “riches” instead of Christ, it just never ends up well. And secondly, I have to do His plan and not mine; meaning His will His way. That is just how it is. And until a lot of us understand that we will always be soooooo frustrated with life instead of living the happy and peaceful life that God wants us to. 

So all those times of frustrations and wanting what other people had, I didn’t understand what they did to get where they were. Nor do I know if that is/was my destiny to be that person. Although I still gripe about certain things like views or followers, I am slowly learning that some things just are not meant to be. And that I am NOT always being punished, which is my answer to everything.  God is such a mighty God and I can never give Him too much love. So I will continue to post things when I have a connection. Nothing will change in that. Only thing that will change is my mindset and the reasons I post things or make videos in the first place. There is no behind the scenes motives any more but just me at my purest of hearts.   I am very glad to have gotten all of this off of chest. Thanks for reading guys!

Pynkstarr